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Down - JJ

2006-06-16T10:44:00.000+08:00

Girl you know i miss you so
I didn't know you had to go
You've had enough of our distance baby
Before I had the chance to say
I'm staying with you
For the rest of my life
Don't keep telling me these words
You don't know how much it hurts
And I'll promise you eternity if you promise me your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was
I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a brid who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

I can't believe it
Tell me I'm dreaming
That we are still we
It was amazing
Said you were lucky
That you found me
It was on a rainy day that we met
You didn't have a place to go
I said we just met so lets go slow but no
You just tell me to keep you from the cold
Sorry I can't take it
Why did u fake it
Why did we kiss
And I'm just down
You left me with a note without a sound
I figured I must have been such a child
You'll never know how much I've been around
How my heart just frowns If you're down
I'll be your teddy bear I'll be your clown
I'll take you round and round and
If you don't mind I cound be your standing ground
Even if that means I'd drown
I said we just met so lets go slow but no
You just tell me to keep you from the cold
Sorry I can't take it
Why did u fake it Why did we kiss
And I'm just down
You left me with a note without a sound
I figured I must have been such a child
You'll never know how much I've been around
How my heart just frowns If you're down
I'll be your teddy bear I'll be your clown
I'll take you round and round and
If you don't mind I cound be your standing ground
Even if that means I'd drown
And baby that'll be my one last vow

praying hard!

2006-06-02T16:04:00.000+08:00

29 may:
chinese O-level paper
my dictionary was confiscated..
cuz there are words inside.
haiz..
why m i so unlucky this yr..
i'm so innocent la..
goodness..

wasn't in good mood..
don't intend to tell my family..
cuz i'm scare..
there are alr not happy with my results..
& the way i spend money..
cuz i'm always sick & my phone etc.
i'm always the one in my family doing or making troubles.
they don understand mi at all..
that's what i feel.

i don know what to say about it..
seriously i don wish to talk about it actually..
cuz it realy upset me..

but becuz Ms lim called mi just now.
she told mi:
8 june, 3pm.
i have to go to the singapore examination & assessment board
for the interview about my dictionary case.
i very scare dat i won't be able to do my other O-level papers.
but i really didn't have the intention to cheat.
i didn't even know dat there is words inside.

hope dat someone will company mi go there..
cuz i'm really scare.
pray hard that everything will be fine.
pray hard dat i'm still able to do all my papers.
pray hard dat i'll be fine.

feeling down!

2006-05-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

i was feeling down this feel days..
wasn't myself oso..
wasn't in clear mind oso.
have being think thru alot.
i realise that i'm person that everyone hated..
even my family.
that feeling come back again.
feel like ending here..
i don have the energy to carried on anymore.

my relationship with my parent was terribly bad this few days.
cuz of my result.
i onli PASSED 2 SUBJECT.
i really envy my friends who have a nice parent who really care & understand them.
who will not stress them..

i still rmb lasted year.
i quarrel with my mother.
she said she just wan mi to pass my exam can alr.
don nid to do so well like all A1.
but now i feel that dat's wat she say.
but not wat she think & feel in her heart.
my parent have being giving mi attitude this few days.
i just cant stand it..
its making mi crazy..

i try to talked to them as thought i'm happy.
but what i got back is a scolding.
"u onli passed 2 subject & u can be so happy."
i totally got nth to say..
i try to talked to them nicely & wanting to be close to them.
but i really gave up now!!
i cant be bothered with anymore things.

i feel that i'm a useless & irritated person dat everyone hated..
i've thought thru alot.
*m i there child?
*are they doin this for my own good?
*do they understand mi?
*do they actually know what i'm thinking?
*or m i too sensitive?
i don know..

read thru alot of compo for my chinese o-level paper 1..
den i realise i don have CHILDHOOD.
my life was boring & peaceful.
i don celebrate b'day since young.
i don recieve present from my family.
my family was like sand..
all spread out.
we are not close at all..
we don go out together.
we don talked.

i don know how i'm goin to carry myself up.
i'm very tired alr.
i know dat i will failed my mid-year.
but i really did study..
but didn't put in my whole heart & mind in it..
& the papers was hard.
why cant they just put themselves in my shoe.
& think about it.
i've made a bad choice.
i shouldn't have come back to study for my Os.
i should have just go to ITE.
i don even feel like studying.
i had enough of my life.
why is it that my life is always full of ups & downs.
non-stop.
its nv ending..
i'm really very tired alr.

have being crying everyday.
wasn't myself.
don feel like talking.
i'm going crazy soon..
ARGHHHHHHHHHH...........
i cant stand it anymore.
why is it that everyyear mid-year i will always be like this?
why cant they be more encouraging than be so ......
pls stopped pouring water on mi!!
i'm not a girl who is so strong.
i'm strong on appearence cuz its just a act on my face.
i'm a soft hearted girl.
i don want my heart to be broken in pieces again.
i cant mend it back everyyear.

i'm feel so dirty!!

2006-05-18T21:24:00.000+08:00

shit myself.
wasn't in my clear mind that day..
went out that day..
to hougang mall..
omg..
i feel so sick & dirty rite now..
omg..
shall not talk about it..
it disgusted mi..

sad days!!

2006-05-18T18:22:00.000+08:00

feeling down now!!
i'm kind of like PMSing nowadays.
don know why.
feeling bad.
don wan to do or go anywhere at all.
haiz..

17/05/06:
just drop down my tear ytr night.
cuz i too tired den i accidently thrown my sch pinafold into the washing machines when i still nid to wear the tml.
den my mummy very angry.
scolded mi.
den she helped mi to iron my pinafold again late at night.
so i cry.
so damn silly to cry over this.
but my tears just went down like this.
i cant control it.

18/05/06:
s h i t la..
my phone spoil.
stupid JOAN called mi.
den my phone vibrate until it drop on the floor from my table.
shit it la.
den i off my phone cuz i don on it at night.
den it cant be switch on in the morning.
oh damn it.
den i was asking fiona whether she got extra phone anot.
den mummy heard.
she scolded mi.
cuz this is my second phone.
my tears once again flow down.
i don know i just feel like crying out..
i'm so stressed, depressed & disappointed nowasdays.
i failed all my subjected except for chinese & e-math.
but all 50 plus wan..
haiz..
how?????????????????/
i don dare to tell my mother..
cuz that day during dinner she said alr.
don ask mi to go see your principal AGAIN!!!
CUZ DAT TIME MY RESULT IS NOT GOOD OSO.
BUT IS BETTER THAN THIS YR.
I VERY SCARE LA..
HOW????
I DON KNOW HOW TO TELL HER..
now i just feel like closing myself up.
& cry out alone.

tml is camp alr.
i haven pack my camp things yet.
i don feel like goin camp alr.
how??
feeling so sad...

superwomen (english)

2006-05-07T15:24:00.000+08:00

Superwoman

Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table
and I make sure that your coffee has it's suger and cream
Your eggs are over easy and you toast is lighty
All that's missing is your morning kiss that used to greet me
Now you say the juice is sour, it used to be so sweet,
And I can't help but to wonder if you're talking about me
We don't talk the way we used to talk, it's hurting so deep
I've got my pride, I will not cry But it's making me weak

I'm not your super woman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that eveything's ok
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional heart as a token of love from you to me

I find my way through the rush hour, try to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you
But when you get there, you just tell me, you're not hungry at all
You said you'd rather read the paper and you don't want to talk
You like to think that I'm just crazy when I say that you've changed
I'm convinced I know the problem, you don't love me the same
You're just going through the motions and you're not being fair
I've got my pride, I will not cry
Still I can't help but care

I'm not your super woman Oh no, no, no
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that eveything's ok
Boy, I am only human I'm only human
This girl needs more than occasional heart as a token of love from you to me

I'm not your super woman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that eveything's ok
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional heart as a token of love from you to me
Ooh baby, look into the corners of your mind
I'll always be there for you, through good and bad times
But I can't be that super woman that you want me to be
I'll give my ever lasting love if you return love to me

I'm not your super woman Oh no, oh no
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that eveything's ok
Boy, I am only human I'm only human
This girl needs more than occasional heart as a token of love from you to me

If you feel it in your heart and you understand me,
stop right where you are, everybody sing along with me
I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet,
but you got to realise that you got to be sweeter to me
I need love,I need love, your love

I'm not your super woman Oh no the kind of girl that you can let down

superwomen (chinese)

2006-05-07T15:13:00.000+08:00

Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table
一夜都没睡
但我不曾如此清醒
我早餐准备了
你爱吃的东西
这次换我等你
被咖啡的香味叫醒
想要找回每天早晨
对我微笑着的你
还能够做些什麽
代替我的歉意
总是望着我小心翼翼
顺着我呼吸
而我竟然理所当然
让你精疲力尽

You were my superwoman
安静的在身边无条件给我
梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎麽不懂你多寂寞
残忍的犯了错不能失去你
You fought your way through the rush hour
Try to make it home just for me
月光下静静靠着彼此
只求夜长一点
有多久没有好好看你
只是认定了我
无论在什麽时候回头都有你的笑容
是我忽略了你也会有
想要哭的感觉
没有一种付出
应该永远心甘情愿
再给被宠坏的男人
最後一次机会
换我忍耐换我等待
不要真的弃权

You were my superwoman
安静的在身边无条件给我
梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎麽不懂你多寂寞
残忍的犯了错
不能失去你 Baby
是我把爱想得太简单
以为只要我存在就能让你取暖
心里唯一的superwoman 没有人能代替
不能想像更不能原谅
这样让爱化成灰烬
You were my superwoman
安静的在身边无条件给我
梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎麽不懂你多寂寞
残忍的犯了错
不能失去你

You were my superwoman
安静的在身边无条件给我
梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎麽不懂你多寂寞
残忍的犯了错
不能失去你

You were my superwoman
安静的在身边无条件给我
梦寐以求的温柔
But I am only human
我怎麽不懂你多寂寞
残忍的犯了错不能失去你

2006-05-07T14:41:00.000+08:00

haha!!
was slacking now!!
hahaha
so sian..
nth got into my head at all..
tml having my phy & a-math..
but just cant get any thing into my head..
hehex..
so come online for awhile..
hehex..
alot of things keep appearing in my mind..
my friends??
my family???
my studies????
haiz..
alot of things happen at home..
at this time when i'm having my mid-yr..
haiz..
why must it be at this time???

wasn't feeling well today also..
don know why..
suddenly my chest very pain..
cannot breath properly..
haiz.

my mid-year it gone alr..
didn't really study for it..
hehex..
& even if got study oso cannot make it alr..
all so difficult to do..
die alr..
i don wan to c the HOD/PRINCIPAL again..
haiz..

nvm shall let it be den..
haiz..
just make sure i do well for my prelim can alr..
its so scary this yr..
everyone is mugging hard..
n chasing up..
while i'm dropping & slacking..
THIS CANT DO..
RUIXIN..
WAKE UP..
THIS YR IS O-LEVEL..
VERY IMPT. MUST WORK HARD..
MUST STUDY HARD..

okie.. shall go back to study alr..
waiting for 11 may to come..
excited.
long time nv go for a drink alr..
hehex..
actually not that long la..
chinese new yr until now..
hehex...

ya. why do gals gossip??
is this what gals are good for??
friends are alway there for you??
must a person have BEST FRIENDS OR GOOD FRIENDS??
i don think so..
a person must have alots of friends..
but whether have best friends or close friends doesn't matter to mi..
cuz they are all the same..
hehex..

i have a friend whom i know since pri3,
i'm surprise to be still so close to her.
haha..
i always tresure her very well.
not that she understand mi well.
but is becuz she's the onli one who knows all the things dat happen to mi.
cuz everytime i'm troubled, i will tell her.
whenever she's troubled, she will called mi.
but what i don understand it why does her friend always tease her about her life.
& grossip ard abt her.
& spread ard.
is that what friends are for??
don they feel bad about it??
why don they think about what if their friend also did dat to her??
what will they feel???
haiz..
hope dat she will be fine..

hehex.. gtg..
c ya..
study hard hard ppl..

2006-05-03T19:30:00.000+08:00

haiz
haiz
haiz..

on 2/05/06:
having my Chenistry paper..
omg.. i cant rmb anything when i went into the hall..
all i can rmb is michelle's [1 , 2 , 3 , 4, -3 , -2 , -1 , 0 ]
haiz..
all my ans are all rubbish..
haha
den went we walking to the bus stop.
i almost kana KNOCK DOWN BY CAR!!
we were waiting for the taffic light to go green..
den i heard someone say can cross alr..
so i take 1 step out..
OMG..
give mi a fright..
LUCKY GOT SZE HWEE..
she grap mi back..
omg..
i don know wat i'm doin la..
n the can cross is the other side..
haiz..
s h i t myself man..
that's the end for mi if don have szw hwee..
haiz..
that's it for my CHEMISTRY OSO..

haiz..
on 3/05/06:
history paper..
omg.. that 1 oso GONE alr..
CUZ I CANT RMB ANYTHING AT ALL..
so is like writing rubbish oso..
haiz..
my mid-yr is gone like dat..
den stupid teachers..
keep picking on us..
sec 5 not students ah..
or we are just too stupid or wat??
why keep picking on US???"
just becuz of the small mistake we made at the 1st weeks of this yr??
if they like dat again..
n when i'm in bad mood..
they are goin to DIE!!!

gtg.. tml still got exam..
c ya..

QUOTE!!

2006-05-03T18:50:00.000+08:00

"True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost."
---Charles Caleb Colton

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."

"Friendship! is one mind in two bodies."
---Mencius

"Friends are God's way of taking care of us."

"If you should die before me, ask if you could bring a friend."
---Stone Temple Pilots

"I'll lean on you and you lean on me and we'll be okay."
---dave Matthew's band

"If all my friends were to jump off ! a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them."

"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say."

"We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere."
--- Tim McGraw

"My father always used to say that when you die, if you've got five real friends, then you've had a great life." ---Lee Iacocca

"Hold a true friend with both your hands."
---Nigerian Proverb

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."
---unknown

FOR XIUMEI

2006-04-30T14:03:00.000+08:00

"Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything."

this qoute is taken from qouteland..
friendship is part of our life in learning & growing up..
everyone will have to been through it..

althought i don believe in true friendship..
but i have an advise for u..
u know who u r..
let time slowly dissolve the misunderstanding..
the are after all ur friends..
maybe its just a misunderstand..
everyone will change but the friendship n feelings for u will nv change..
i think i shall not say anymore..
cuz i don know wat really happen..
but cheer up okie..
u are always the optimistic gal i that i know..

hope dat u will understand..
if u really someone to company, can always feel free to called mio..
don feel down okie..
cheer up gal..

P.S: IF GOT PPL BULLY U, WE, AH BANG, AH SENG & AH HUE, WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT & HELP U UP..
CUZ U R PART OF US!!! AH LIAN!!!
HEHEX..

2006-04-28T22:23:00.000+08:00

just reach home not long ago..
actually support to go out to study..
but in the end i slack ard..
after my SS & math p1..
went to airport to have my lunch den have to leave alr..
went to CANDY EMPIRE to buy chocolate..
so nice..
hehex..
just realise i spent too much money on food.
hehex..
gaining weight now..
oh man..
becoming fatter n fatter..
haiz..
exam stresss..
that's why!! is it????
hahaha...

read xiu mei's blog just now..
GAL: i went through this before..
i know how u feel..
this is wat everyone will face in friendship prob when they are growing up..
its a way to make us grow up..
this is just the starting of ur life..
is good that u give urself some time to MIA!!!
okie.. if u really nid ppl to company can ask mi okie?
i'll be there..
feeling down cant help u much..
don't becuz of ur mood den have quarrel wif ur mum okie..
running away from 'home' will not help u..
i did that before..
n i'm damn stupid to go to my aunt's hse to stay over..
just to run away from home..
lame la.. okie..
running waya from home also means that u are trying to run away from the problems u are facing now..
i used to think that i rely tooo much on ppl.. therefore, i chose to learn n become more independent..
there is gd n bad in being independent..
try to think on the positive side..
maybe it can really help u.. cuz i believe u are a clever n cheerful n optimistic gal..
u can do it wan..
don think too much okie...
i know i cant cheer u up...
but i can be the one to lend u my ear..
to listen to you..
try to cheer up okie..
do something that u wanted to do..
let it be in the past..
let ur days be a fresh day..
don think about anythings..
just go ahead & do watever u wan to do..
okie...
DO TAKE CARE OF URSELF & HEALTH!!!
LOVE YA!! <3>

I'M NOT GOING TO MOS on 30th may!!
shall stay at home to rest & to study!!!
hehex..
i very good rite!!
i listen to you!!!
u should know who u r!!
my beloved ah lian!!!
hehex..

mid-yr

2006-04-26T16:08:00.000+08:00

hey.. long time no update my beloved blog!!
hehex...
sorry ppl..
busy studying for my mid-yr..
yupp..
hehex..
after KH scolded mi that day..
den i started to think about what he say..
ya.. i think i should study but oso not neglect my cca..
i think i can cope it..
I CAN DO IT WAN!!
yeah!!
okie..

mid-yr:
24/04 - english paper 1 & paper 2
28/04 - social studies & e-math paper 1
2/05 - chemistry paper 3
3/05 - history
4/05 - e-math paper 2
5/05 - chinese paper 1 & 2 & listening
8/05 - a-math paper 1 & physics paper 2
9/05 - a-math paper 2
10/05 - science paper 1

den after mid-yr will be UG camp!!
19 may -21 may!!!
hoping for dat day to come.. wonder how my sec 3 leaders will be doin on that 3 days..
hope dat they will shout!!
yupps..
n my mother tongue programme for O-LEVEL will be started from 15 may onwards till my O-LEVEL chinese.
scare scare sia..
hehex..

yupp.
i CAN DO IT WAN..
NO MATTER WAT HAPPEN I MUST CONCENTRATE ON MY REVISION!!
MUST PASS ALL THE SUBJECT THIS TIME!!
yupp..

okie..
this few days i kanna harasses by my sec 1 juniors..
OMG..
they are really scary..
can msg u non-stop asking u bout ur personal things..
goodness..
i got so annoy with 1 of them dat i sort of been mean to her la..
this is how its lyk:
J: jie, can teach mi math, when u free?
mi: u wif ur bf now rite. ask him to teach u la..
J: he don wan to teach mi. he wan mi to fail my math.
mi: oh.. i not free everyday, my O-LEVEL is coming.. not lyk ur so free.. my time is very precious everyday. must spend my time to study instead.

oh yeah!!!!
she finally stop msging mi.. every 5 sec will recieve her msg...
goodness..
my msg free finish alr la...
so sad..
humph!!

okie.. anw.. i miss some ppl..
miss JOSIE, KELLY, XIUMEI, HUIYIN, ADEL, YVONNE, JOY!!!
miss the time we have in MS!!
haiz..
when can i see them again all of them together???

nvm..
dan ask mi to go MOS with her..
but den i don know how to tell my mummy..
its on the 30/05 (tue)
den its oso very expensive..
pre-sale : $18
door sale: $22
18 & above is allow to buy alcohol drink..
i wanna go..
but don know her to tell my mummy
& i'm broke alr..
no money to spend..
i still own MRS NG $10..
haiz..
HOW!!!
SOMEBODY PLS TELL MI!!!

2006-03-29T22:13:00.000+08:00

feel so tired nowadays..
haiz.. feeling so sick today..
having headacde
don know why..

allene ask mi 1 QN today..
why do i wan to care bout guides so much..
i don know how to ans her..
but wat i know is
i cannot don be bother..
cuz is my cca n its wat i use my hand n other fellow mates who build it up wan..
our hard work..
n i feel dat is part of mi now..
don know why.
i just cant be bother..
i wan to.
but i don know why i cant..
i don know how to explain..

what i don know is why u guys can don bother about it?
our own hard work n hardships..

i wan to keep myself busy with stuff to stop thinking bout somethings..
i wan to make myself stress.. so dat i can concentrate on my studies..
i don know how to explain..
its my job to do a part in guides..
n i will still do my part in guides when i left sch..
cuz i'm committed into guides alr.

2006-03-28T20:53:00.000+08:00

just read Rayne's blog. stupid la...
crap!!! crap!!! crap!!!!
she tag mi..
say: someone asked mi for ur no...haha..guess hu?lol...some more tat person so guan xin you lehs..still sae will stand beside u and support u for ur o's leh..lol...
WHATEVER!!!!!
OKIE..
read ur blog, its AH BOY rite!!
hahaha..
lolx...
goodness..
don think too much okie..
we are onli FRENZ!!!
STUPID ah boy!!
nv save my no. when he msg mi, he will gat it from mi..
hahaha...
frenz should guan xin each other wan mah..
not lyk somebody..
nv even guan xin mi!!!
humph..
she should know who i'm talking about..
hahahaha....
don think too much okie...
wow.. talk until so far..
wat wedding..
hahahaha..
know dat u are joking..
hahaha...
don be jealous okie!!
i will help u get LUCKY'S no.
hahahahaa...
be patience okie!!
hahahaha...

my 17th b'day!!!

2006-03-23T23:44:00.000+08:00

HAPPY B'DAY TO MI
HAPPY B'DAY TO MI
HAPPY B'DAY TO MEEEE
HAPPY B'DAY TO RUIXIN!!!
YEAH!!!!

sad day!!!
must go sch today..
den must stay back for chinese comp course..
den after dat must go for AC(awards ceremony rehersal)
reach home at 6 plus!!
cuz after dat went hougang mall wif dan to eat something..
ya..

in class, after english lesson ended..
before moving to the next class,
e whole class sang b'day songs for mi!!
hehex..
blush!!
den mrs april ng walk towards mi, pretending she was holding a cake..
n ask mi to make a wish n blow the candles..
OMG..
i'm so peisai now..
goodness..
she can be nice la.. sometime onli..
hehex..

den jasmine, debra, allene gave mi a prefume..
cuz they don know wat to buy for mi..
haha
n e jackets al don have my size..
hahaha
thanks alot anw..
i really lyk it..

17th year old alr..
goodness..
time really pass so fast..
haiz..

i have 3 b'day wishes:
1) study hard n pass my Os wif flying colours
2) happy always wif my friends!!!
3) SECRET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
or not my wishes will not come true!!! hahahaha...

okie.. as usual nv really celebrate my b'day..
anw i think b'day really mean nth to mi..
ever since young i don celebrate b'day..
its just a day dat go pass as per normal..
nth special..
until sec sch life den i started celebrating my b'day by goin out wif frenz..
dat it..
haiz..
use to it alr..
all this special days dat alot of ppl think is really nth to mi..

okie.. gtg.. c ya...

my horoscope

2006-03-23T16:05:00.000+08:00

my horoscope

Aries (23/03)
Your friendship must be warm and on the level.
Let me put it this way. You are a fine friend
and a formidable foe. With Aries, things are
never done in halves. Aries expects total
devotion and sincerity in friendship. In turn,
he/she extends a loving and strong hand

*Aries is the first Sign of the Zodiac. It represents birth and the first realization of Self. Additionally, because it represents the beginning of the Astrological year, people born under this Sign like to get things started. They tend to display strong leadership, and their extroverted and assertive natures let them lead off the new cycle eagerly. They are the pioneers of the Zodiac, tramping courageously into the wilderness. Aries is the Sign of new beginnings. They are dynamic and active, as befits the beginning of the Astrological cycle. As the first Sign, Aries also rules the first House: the House of Self, also known as the House of Personality.
The Astrological Symbol of Aries is the Ram. Like the popular conception of the Ram, Aries people are able to accomplish many things by sheer energy and force of will: "ramming" their way to their goals. In this way, Aries exemplifies the Cardinal Quality assigned to it. Arians can be blunt, and they are bold and strong. Within the Zodiac, Aries is opposite Libra, the Scales of Balance, so Aries tend to be about self and ego rather than the balance between people. They are self-contained, and sometimes selfish, but they are not loners.
Aries is ruled by the Planet Mars. In ancient Roman mythology, Mars (and his Greek equivalent, Ares) was the God of War. He was bold, aggressive, energetic, and courageous. On the negative side, he was impulsive and compulsive, quick-tempered, and he could give in to anger and a will for destruction. Mars rules both Aries and Scorpio; Aries is the masculine (day) aspect of Mars and Scorpio is the feminine (night). Both Signs are associated with war: Aries is on the front lines and Scorpio is the strategist. Mars was active and high-spirited, full of physical energy and vitality; and the Aries born reflect his leadership and initiative. They are strongly independent and determined, and have the physical stamina to stay their course. They tend to be very competitive, and may sometimes seem arrogant, domineering, or intolerant. But all these qualities make Aries the natural choice to initiate projects and get things started. They are adept at "taking the ball and running with it," and projects tend to progress quickly under their guidance. But a well run project may become boring for Aries, and they can lack follow-through and lose interest before it's completed. Many successful Aries learn to discipline themselves to see their projects through to completion.
The Element associated with Aries is Fire. Fire Signs are physical: they tend to respond to the world through action, rather than practicality, intellect, or emotion. When presented with a new project or idea, their innate enthusiasm and need for challenge cause them to jump in right away, leading the way. One of their great skills is reaching beyond normal limitations. Occasionally their tendency for haste and hurry can get them into trouble if they don't think things through carefully enough, and this can lead to frustration. At times, people can think they are brash, rude, and inconsiderate. But Aries is only doing what the Ram's nature tells them to do. As soon as they discover a new project, all else is forgotten!
Arians tend to want what they want and when they want it. Aries need to accept that this isn't always possible, and stop butting their heads, Ram like, into the nearest wall. This is a valuable lesson that enables them to develop their understanding of themselves. But because of the ego that can manifest itself in Aries, some Rams may feel that they are the centre of the universe. Aries who wish to develop themselves learn that they are part of the larger order of all people.
In their leisure time, Aries tend to play as hard as they work at the office. They greatly enjoy athletics, as sports give them a positive and healthy outlet for some of their natural aggression. They appreciate both individual challenge, especially aerobics, as well as the group challenge of football and soccer. Working out some of their great physical energy on the playing field helps them focus better once they return to the office. In love relationships, Aries is playful and romantic.
Aries rules the head, face, and brain. People born under Aries may be more susceptible to headaches and nosebleeds than people of other Signs. Red is the colour of Mars and is often associated with physical action and war, so it is natural colour for Aries.
The great strength of the Aries born is in their energy, initiative, and courage. Their ability to take a project and go with it is unparalleled. The fire they bring to their lives makes them one of the most dynamic characters of the Zodiac.

2006-03-22T20:54:00.000+08:00

31 ways to make a girl smile =)

Message: 1. Tell her she is beautiful
2. Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its justfor a second
3. Hug her from behind.
4. Leave her voice or txt messages to wake up to.
5. Wrestle with her :)
6. don't go hang out with you ex when shes notwith you, you might not relize how badly it hurtsher.
7. If youre talking to another girl, when you're donetalking, walk over and hug her and kiss her....lether know she's yours and they aren't.
8. Write her notes or call her just to say "hi"
9. Introduce her to your friends . . . as yourgirlfriend.
10. Play with her hair.
11. Pick her up.
12. Get upset if another guy touches her and shedoesn't like it
13. Make her laugh.
14. Let her fall asleep in your arms
15. If she's mad at you, kiss her
16. If you care about her, then TELL HER
17. Every guy should give their girl 3 things: astuffed animal (she'll hug it every time she goes tosleep), jewelery (she'll treasure it forever), and oneof his t-shirts (she'll most likely wear it to bed) orsweatshirts sprayed with his cologne!! and flowersor something occasionally.
18. Treat her the same around your friends as youdo when you're alone.
19. Look her in the eyes and smile
20. Hang out with her on weekends.
21. Kiss her in the rain (girls love this)
22. Kiss her just for the heck of it.
23. If your listening to music, let her listen too.
24. Remember her birthday and get hersomething,even if its simple and inexpensive, itcame from YOU. it means the WORLD to her.
25. when she gives you a present on your birthday,Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell heryou love it, even if you don't (it'll make her happy.)
26. Always call her when you say you will, it maynot seem like it, but it does hurt her and makesher think you don't care to call even if you canonly talk for a minute. Girls don't necessarily haveto have hour long conversations every night but itsnice for them to hear your voice even for a quickhello.--please dun make her wait..cuz they wait.
27. Give her what she wants
28. Recognize the small things . . . they usuallymean the most.
29. dont hug her friends or your friends that aregirls cause she'll feel left out.
30. hang out with her whenever you are free.
31. If u care about her...SHOW her!Guys repost this if u would do it.....Girls repost this if u think its sweet......Repost this as "

31 Ways To Make A Girl Smile

2006-03-21T20:58:00.000+08:00

PAPER CRANE LOVE

There was once this guy who is very much in love with his girl.
This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl.
Although at that time he was just a small fry in his company, and his future didn't seem too bright, they were very happy together.
Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back.
She also told him that she could not visualize any future for both of them, so they went their own separate ways there and then...
Heartbroken, the guy agreed.
But when he regained his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of himself.
Finally with all the hard work and the help of friends, this guy had set up his own company ..
You never fail until you stop trying.
One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking to some destination.
Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched.
It didn't take him long to realize they were his girl's parents.
With a heart in getting back at them, he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan.
He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same any more; he had his own company, car, a condo, etc.
He made it!What he saw next confused him, the couple was walking towards a cemetery.
So he got out of his car and followed...and he saw his girl, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone, and he saw his paper cranes right beside her...
Her parents saw him. He asked them why this had happened.
They explained that she did not leave for France at all.
She was ill with cancer.
She had believed that he would make it someday, but she did not want to be his obstacle... therefore she had chosen to leave him.
Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want doesn't mean that that someone doesn'1t love you with all he or she has. The girl had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her, because if the day comes when fate brings him to her again...he can take some of those back with him...
The guy just wept...The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside her knowing you can't have her, see her, or be with her ever again.
Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person who you thought meant nothing to you.

* when i read this, my tears almost flow down.. its so sad n touching..
why is it that when someone give in so much but in the end get back nth in return.. is this called love?

2006-03-19T22:11:00.000+08:00

went to hougang mall on sat night to pass zhen e newspaper..
so help xiumei collect her contact lens..
den personally send it to her today..
before i go to grandma hse..
see...
mi so good rite...
haiz..

N REALLY REALL REALLY THANKS FOR E PRESENT!!!
I REALLY REALLY LIKE IT ALOT...
E ROXY PENCIL CASE N MY BELT N MY NAME COOKIES N MY FAV COOKIES....
THANKS THANKS ALOT..
A MILLION THANK YOU!!!!!!

reviews of 16-18 march

2006-03-18T16:17:00.000+08:00

i just got home..
kelly send mi home..
i think this is my don know how many time i took cab wif kelly, monkey etc.
but always i nv pay one haha..

16 march:
at ZOUK!!
WHO WENT?
haha.. mi[ah hui] , huiyin[ah seng], xiumei[ah lian], kelly[ah beng], xue yan, chi kheng[ah boy], "lucky" , joy n nic........
stupid lucky n dat AH BOY!!!!
bully mi..
change my name from RUIXIN to RU XIN to LUCY!!!!
so xiumei help mi.. hehex.. i'm lucy.. so he's "lucky"
hahaha.... my very entertaining doggie!!!
hahahahaha...
at first didn't thought bout talking to huiyin frens wan..
but they are very nice n friendly..
yuppp.. hehex..
i met xiu mei n kelly at parkway parade..
to joy's hse..
to put our things..
cuz i told my mummy i goin "chalet"
hehex.. hor!!!!!! notty gal!!!
hehex..
den went to meet the rest of them at tiong bahru mrt station..
just nice saw huiyin n frenz at e plaza outside precious thots..
hehee..
den all of us have to wait for ah boi.. haiz..
den in e end i kana sabo la.
wat i lyk ah boy..
cuz i ask him to go wan..
cuz i still have 1 more tickets, ee shuen cant go..
so no choice..
out of a sudden think of him.. so ask him lor..
hehex..
er........... very out of point la...
onli saw him once la... at e DND night..
yupp.
so we WALK TO ZOUK LA..
very "fast" reach wan..
really fast ah..
i walk until leg pain liao lor...
crap!!!
den reach there..
sit down tok tok..
den huiyin n xiumei went to pick joy in, cuz she went church..
so meet us late..
den in the end she haven come yet..
ya... then lyk dat lor...
after dat i n xiumei went to drink n ah boy n "lucky" came along oso...
n guess wat...
i now den know there is "chinese drink" n "malay drink"
all thanks to lucky den i know wan..
hahaha...
on the way out of zouk, i saw Crystal.. stupidly lend her my ez-link card..
so dat her frenz below 16 can get in to the party..
den lyk dat lor...
den went to fetch joy at don know where there is a big ball in front of her..
hahaha...
den keep running.. across e road..
den we saw "a cat's tail"
den in e end the 2 boy laugh at us cuz is a cloth onli..
stupid la..
den xiumei i think run too much.. n drink too much...
she feel lyk vomitting.. den she stand at e drain there..
den dat lucky ask if she's okie.. "don vomit hor!!!"
den he started to think crock la...
xiu mei have ah boy child.. ya..
den he told ah "yuan lai jiu shi ni"
den dat joy continue wif "xin fu jiu zai ni shou li"..
hahaha..
cuz joy n lucky same age mah.. 19 so we say they are together..
so joy ask him to called her "qing ai de" hahaha...
den xiu mei use that line to said lucky dat joy say her xin fu jiu zai ni shou li"
den he was lik got nth to sae..haha...
in zouk was damn crowded la...
keep kana body contact..
haiz.. den dat lucky stand behind mi when on e dance floor to sort of help mi la..
party ended den we hang around e playground area...
went to buy drink at [shell] after sitting for a while...
den took cab down to forum's mac...
huiyin suggested we get some food to eat..and e nearest was town...
at first was swensen..
then 24hrs mac...
den very funny..
we took 2 cab..
but 1 cab was squeeze wif 5 ppl..
dat ah boy don know why cannot take another cab wif that onli 2 guy, but squeeze wif us..
hang ard mac til 6 i think..
ate our breakfast at 4am...yawns..
n i really cannot take it sia..
my eye can close anytime lor...
den dat ah boy really got slp at mac..
ya.. huiyin n nic...
buy us buy food..
den lucky n xue yan went to sit outside..
cuz xue yan very cold..
ya..
den dat LAME XIUMEI, i think so too tired alr...
so lame..
do magic show wif lucky...
between them was 1 transparent glass..
its really very lame la...
coincidentally lucky n xiu mei both got 10bucks notes in their hands la..
den they both started dis lame thing...
they use e glass to do tis magic thing....
n i was lyk laughing at them all along..
hahahahaha...
then we start to disturb the 2 of them...
hahaha...
xue yan: you all two veri pei lehs..
xiu mei: huh? who and who?
xue yan: you and him lor
xiumei: [vomit] ya lor how u noe i lik him one ah? frm e first time i saw him i knew he was e one alr...
ya.. cuz got ppl smoking outside mah..
don wan to go out..
but in e end we went..
cuz.. they are all outside..
hahahaha...
den we stay there.. to rest..
n huiyin n frenz gamble..
yupp..
till 6 den we leave..
take cab to huiyin hse to rest n past time..
den i slept in the cab..
really very tired..
so slp lor...
i slp for onli 5 hrs.
den wake up..
went to joy hse to take my things..
den we went to katong plaza ktv..
to sing..
till 6 plus i think..
went back to parkway to eat dinner..
den walk walk..
den kelly fetch mi home wif cab..
ya...
den reach home..
really really tired alr..
so watch tv den i drop die on my bed..
nv go tuition on sat.. cuz cant wake up...
den i msg mr hsu i not free cannot make it...
hehex...
den sat was at home doin hw n rotting....

2006-03-15T20:12:00.000+08:00

today wake up late..
so i was late when meeting grace at 12. plus wan..
hehex..
to booked dat stupid place in pizza hut.. at PS!!
in the end i waited for 90 min for e seats..
hiaz my group of ppl have 15 ppl..
so much okie..
hahaha
anw is mrs ng treat..
yupp..
hehex..
AFTER DAT..
we went to play pool at MONSTER!!!
nice nice..
yarhui n gough n ruiwen teach mi how to play..
hahaha..
mrs ng oso came along..
she oso learning how to play..
hahaha..
so funny..
i always miss by just a small bit..
sad case. hahaha...

okie.. after dat went to MS to meet xiumei they all..
to c how tml..

YEAH!!!!!
I'M GOIN TO ZOUK!!!!!
HAPPI!!!!
HAHAHAHA...

2006-03-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

MOMENTS IN LIFE

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!
When the door of happiness closes, another opens; but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.
Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, and enough hope to make you happy.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying. a meanful mail i recieved...though its some form of chain letter larhs..bud it reali made mi wonder wad life is all about..and i like the part tat it says " dont go for looks; it can decieve","dont go for wealth; even tat fades away","go for someone that makes you smile"...

hehex.. got this mail don know from which frenz.. but its very meaningful. yupp.. learning from there.. hehex..

2006-02-20T16:03:00.000+08:00

I HATE MY LIFE!!!
I TOTALLY HAVE NO LIFE!!!
MY LIFE IS CONTROL BY LOTS OF PPL!!!
S H I T THEM OKIE..

everyone change..
AGREE?
YES AGREE!!!!
some to e worst..
some to e beta..
but which do i goes to?
i'm sick n tired of changing myself to suit to them..
i'm just going to be MYSELF!!!
ITS GREAT TO BE MYSELF..

i don get it.. i'm alr how old..
nearly 17..
n my life is still been controlled by ppl [not my family]
HELLO!!! who do u think u are to control mi??????

okie..
shall not say dat..

OKIE..
I shall end here!!!

2006-02-19T00:20:00.000+08:00

today went to work in e afternoon..
at 12..
so fun to meet up wif them..
n i was so excited to c them.. n...
hehex..
secret..
hahaha..
n i was almost late for work again..
hahaha
i think i have to get myself a new watch to make sure i don be late again..
hahaha..
n they treat mi pizza hut for my dinner..
cuz this is really really my last day of work..
hahaha...
cool rite..
n we brought e same ring [ee shuen, kelly, xiu mei n mi]
so nice..
our symbols - friendship band, tigger handphone strip n ring..
hahahahaha...

luv them all..
hehex..
n he finally talk to mi!!!
hahahaha...
but too bad i'm no longer working there..
n i saw lots of new ppl working ard there..
COOL AH...
hahaha..

2006-02-18T01:13:00.000+08:00

hmmmm...
today is thinking day!!!
n guess wat, e 4 of us tie blaits..
n it look nice..
hehex..
but so sad my rubber band broke..
n qian yu have to tie for mi in e bus..
n we 4 were late cuz of our hair..
n we kana a very big scolding..
THAT'S SO GREAT!!!
started off wif my day wif a big scolding..
CRAP ALRIGHT...

okie nvm..
after thinking day,
mi, cherly, anna, sam, jaclyn, jolie n her sis..
we went to chomp chomp for dinner..
n i'm boke after dat..
e food there is so nice..
hahaha..
n we were so COA in e bus okie..
so noisy n crazy.. hahaha...
okie..
den i went home..
it was so fun n full hahaha....

review

2006-02-08T17:21:00.000+08:00

SORRY PPL..
i think i'm goin to stop updating this blog..
as i think is a waste of time..
n somemore..
its my life n my thinking dat i wrote in this blog..
why is it dat ppl keep talking bout wat i write.. n think about it so must..
why do they have such a wild thinking..
STOP DAT!!!
n stop telling ppl about what i write..
okie..

I REALLY HATE IT!!!!!

i update my blog is to let my friens know how have i been..
n not for your to gossip about what i write..
i really hate this kind of life..
its suck big time okie..
who will wan such a life..
its giving stress or pressure to mi...
i nv talk about ppl's life dat they wrote on e blog..
so y is it dat it happen to mi..

i really don lyk school..
it suckz..
i'm not feeling happy at all in school..
neither m i concentrating on my studies..
why do i still stay in sch?
i wan to drop out of sch NOW!!!!!
but i just cant..

gal..
must concentrate in class okie..
focus more on ur studies..

DND Retro event

2006-02-07T01:01:00.000+08:00

hi..
i'm back..
i went to precious thots' dinner n dance Retro event..
it was so fun..
cuz of e ppl i sat wif i think..
n e programme n MCs which made mi so crazy..
hahaha
but wat is worst is joy was somehow i think i was ma lu by her..
she laugh till she cry..
n she was really very tian zhen...
OMG lor..
how old is she alr can..
3-4 yrs older than mi lor..
n she is still acting lyk a small little kid..
GOODNESS!!!!
it was fun..
n alot of ppl wear till very Retro..
so nice..
we had disco, games, lucky draw, e best Retro outlet etc.
hahaha...
n guess wat..
dat blur blur guy was sitting at e same table as mi..
now i know he's e blur blur guy who always ans call for stock check n transfer of stock..
n his name is weird too...
hahahaha.... chi kian..
his funny, weird, crappy, friendly, japanese look, cute..
hahaha..
TABLE TEN!!! e nosiest n enthu group..
hahahaha..
but e 2 lady don know from which outlet was so lyk we r very mu lu ing lyk dat..
irritating..
den we oso ate n play..
games was fun..
we also dance..
n huiyin promise mi to bring mi go clubbing..
hahahahaha...
waiting for dat day to come..
hahahahahaha...
okie..
gtg.. c ya..

my New Year Resolution!!!

2006-01-29T09:32:00.000+08:00

my wish for this yr:

study hard for all my exam
study extreme hard for my Os
learn to have fun in sch
don think too much about things dat is none of my business
wish dat i will find _________________________
must treasure every single one of my frenz n teachers
make my last yr in sec sch to be e sweetest memories
hope dat i can be together wif my gang[ah beng, ah seng, ah lian, ah aqua] for e last time at D N D NIGHT.
enjoy my life to e fullest i can
wish dat there will be no more things happening in sch
be a very good gal for e last yr
don ever throw temper
love every single ppl i know
love myself

i think dat's all i can think of at e moment..

hehex..

1st day of CNY

2006-01-29T09:16:00.000+08:00

HELLO!!!!!!
i'm finally back..
sorry ppl for not updating myself..
cuz i'm actually not free recently..
got sch things n doin some CNY things..
haiz..
so fast i'm 1 yr older for my chinese's age..
hahahaha...

oh ya..
btw i went back to MS to take my pay..
got alot of things happen..
my 2 i/c i hope dat ur will my fine soon...
don wish to c ur lyk this okie..
sob sob..

hey hey..
how can i be sad during chinese new yr?
hahaha..
okie.. anw..
got too much things to update about n i don know where to start..
so its beta not to write..
hehex..

gtg alr..
must go to my grandma hse..
wish everyone A HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR!!!
MAY ALL YA WISHES COME TRUE..
N HAPPY COLLECTING ANG PAO!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

c ya..

2005-12-30T14:28:00.000+08:00

yoz yoz!!!!!
i'm BACK!!!
so sorry!!!
my blog really rotting alr..
zhen was rite..
ever since 10 dec till now i haven update my blog..
so sad rite!!!
hehex..

i'm so sorry..
didn't update myself..
anw was real busy working everyday..
hahaha

anw having fun working at MS-precious thots..
all of them are all very nice..
really miss them after ytr..
not working there alr..
so sad..
they r really kind of close of to mi after that 1 mths plus of working wif them as a big family..
playing, striving, slacking, celebrating, talking, goin home together!!!
will really rmb all e fun i have wif them..
hehex...
esp. XIU MEI!! e 1 whom always agrue wif mi..
talking bout personal thing together..
hehex..
meeting up on e 7th jan to go shopping n making hair n to take our paid..
N to visit someone..
hehex..
keeping it as a secret..
hehex..

ya...
time really passed very fast...
2005 will be gone after tml...
n i'll be goin to countdown tml wif karylan..
still looking for ppl to go wif us..
sad rite..
onli 2 of us..
hehex..
yup..

Time to recalled n do a review on my yr 2005:

struggling on my Ns result [somehow disappointed n shock]
have a big misunderstand wif my close frenz
regret taking ppl for granted
being too proud
not treasuring ppl who treat mi very nice n who treasure mi
miss a big chance...
have alot of fun wif my frenz
oso have alot of saddening things dat happen
not studying very hard
not being myself
always van anger on my frenz when i'm not in gd mood
always having PMS
made alot of new frenz
learned to take up jokes
learned alot of new experience

2006 plans n goals:

be more socialble
treasure every1 ard mi [learning]
think before i do anything
study hard for my Os
no matter what my L1R5 must be higher than be sis
take things easy
learn to take jokes
don throw my temper anyhow
learn to control myself in evrything i do
study study study
nv gonna miss any chance
try not to play too much
concentrate during lesson time

i think dat should be all i'm thinking of.. hehex...

gonna go n pack my stuff to welcome e new yr 2006

c ya.

2005-12-25T06:30:00.000+08:00

yawn!!!
so tired..
just came home from e countdown n celebration for x'mas..
hehex..
my 1st n last time goin town to celebrate x'mas..
so chaotic, crowded, crazy..

but quite crazy when i'm wif my working frenz..
hehex..
fun actually..
we went wif ader to far east to meet her frenz..
den we went long john to eat den to cine..
on e way kana all e spray..
so irritating..
very clean wan actually den go there so dirty alr..
so sick la..
den got 1 spray on my face den kana my eye..
make mi so angry..
play oso cannot play until too much mah..
den after dat i have to go wash my eye cuz eye pain..
sickening ppl esp GUYS!!!!!
we went Kbox to play after work ard 1 am till 6 am..
we r "drunk"
den very siao..
there is 4 of us..
actually 5 but that hamster [aderline] have to go alr..
so sad..
kelly, xiu mei, mi, hui yin..
went there very funny..
we started teasing dat cute guy we serve us..
den he got no chore but to give us 1 more tibits..
hahahaha..
den they started teasing mi wif all e love songs..
SO PERVERT...
DEN E SAME GUY COME IN TO SERVE US DEN THEY TEASING MI TILL I VERY EMBARESS..
DEN SAY E WRONG THING..
so embarssing...
very crazy that ytr..
hahaha..
cannot forget..
i wan to go there again!!!!!
must really catch up wif them again..
hehex..
hahahaha...

gtg..
still got work today..
sure fell asleep wan during work time..
so damn tired la...

2005-12-10T00:10:00.000+08:00

hey!!!
today meet out wif joseleen at kovan..
cuz e hp keychain dat i brought for jose spell wrongly..
so went back to change it..
hehex..
den we head to marina square..
went to my shop to order things..
cuz tonite at 10pm we having 15% discount on all e items except for precious moments' figuring..
lolx..
so went down to order things..
hehex..
so look lyk s'porean!!
hahaha..
den we went to walk walk around level 3..
GUESS WAT?
i saw him working today!!!!!
yeah!!!!
hehex..
i'm having love sick again..
hahaha...

den we went to eat at yoshinoya..
cuz that joseleen wan to eat there..
n i'm oso hungry..
so eat there lor..
n she 'abit' funny onli la..
[ABIT ONLI LA]
SHE ORDER HER SALOMN MEAL..
so SMALL size..
ordered a large meal!!!!
OMG!!!
n GUESS WAT!!!
she finish it!!!
my regular meal make mi so full..
n she could actually finish it..
haiz..
[beta don look down on small size ppl, cuz they actually can eat alot]
GOODNESS...
she very TAO MEI today!!
FIRSTLY: she drip 2 drop of ice lemon tea on her white skirt..
SECONDLY: she ta fan her MISO SOUP on e table n floor!!!
hahaha
n we both keep laughing..
cannot stop laughing..
den i went to buy 1 more miso soup for myself..
hahaha..
THIRDLY: actually is e 1st incident: she ordered e wrong size of meal!!!
n spend $8 on it..
when i onli spend around $6.
hahaha..
okie.
den we left yoshinoya..
n went back to youth corner at level 3..
went shopping at clothes n present..
n joseleen have to buy her jean..
so we went alr.
looking for jeans..
n its fast to find something dat fit her nicely..
not very hard wat..
ppl still say sure don have her size wan..
haiz..
BUT!!! HAVE!!!
DON KNOW WHO SAY WAN LOR..
huh? who say wan?
okie..
den wen my fav shop[blossom] to look look..
den i brought a pink tank top for myself..
nice nice..
joseleen try on e yellow tee..
okie..
wanna buy dat for her x'mas present..
but den don wan.
walk around 1st..
hehex..
okie..
n i saw a bag which is very very nice..
wanted to buy... ...
BUT very expenise..
it cost $79 i think!!!

omg.. i really lyk day bag..
goodness..
okie nvm..
save enough money den go buy dat bag..
hehex...

okie..
den we headed to BUGIS to shop..
went to bugis village 1st den went to buy sling bag for joseleen..
it cost $25
den we ask for $20 den e lady say okie..
okie lor..
but i onli paid for $13..
cuz i qian joseleen $7..
yup..
lame rite..
its her x'mas present n yet she paid $7 for it..
hahaha..
okie..
den we shop shop around den went to [blossom] AGAIN!!
AT edge..
there got more clothes..
den i brought a WHITE POLO-TEE from there..
okie..
den headed to hougang mall to walk walk..
den to compasspoint to walk walk oso..

within that 8 hrs..
we went to 5 diff places..
super rite..
hahaha...

but i spend alot today....
is super alot lor...
goodness..

okie..
cannot go out for e next 2 wks alr..
must save money..
yup..

RMB: SAVE MONEY!!!

GTG.
very sleepy now.
must go sleep alr..
tml still must wake up early to go work..
tired...
tml most of them will be damn tired..
so i must be energtic....
c ya..
take care..
BYE!!!!

2005-12-05T00:24:00.000+08:00

hello!!!
today wen out wif joseleen, karylan, kesie n mi!!!
lolx..

n actually oso got qian yu wan..
but cant find her..
till lyk 11 plus de found her..
okie in e end she cant go out..
so we went without her..
went to meet joseleen at ponggol mrt station.
den wen to bugis to meet karylan..
den we go walk walk den go n meet kesie..
haiz..
kesie lyk kind of very not herself..
very quiet..
yup..
den we went to watch chicken little..
so nice..
so funny..
hahaha..
den we go walk walk..
den go buy present for kesie..
hahaha..
she oso brought present for joseleen..

lolx..
den headed home..
very fun ytr..
cuz we all suan joseleen..
cuz all of us all taller den her..
haha..
so funny...

lolx...
tml goin out wif yizhen, meidan, allene, jasmine..
goin to watch chicken little again..
hahaha...
i asked wan..
hehex..
BUT I GOT NO MONEY LA..
HOW?

HAIZ..
take 1 step count 1 step lor..
lolx..

gtg.
c ya..

break day!!!

2005-12-03T12:02:00.000+08:00

hello!!!
i'm back!!!
back from where?????

hahaha..
back from:
after so long of working n busy day..
i'm finally back..
so long nv update my blog alr.
yup..
hahahahaha...

okie..
let mi tell u bout my life this 2 weeks!!!

my job:
goin fine..
tiring..
my feet hurts...
having sore thoat soon..
learn alot bout servicing cutomers..
learn to be more open..
learn to talk more..
learn to be more socialable..
learn to take joke..
kelly say that i've improve alot on my service..
pray hard dat she will increse my pay..
kelly oso say dat she wan to trained mi to be her strongest sale assistant..
but i don think i wan..
hehex..

my days of leaves:
went to allene hse to watch e heaven to e stairway..
wen out to watch harry potter wif allene n jiawen..
n brought X'mas present for jiawen n allene.
we 3 have e same bag..
BUT.......
diff colour..
hahaha..
we brought for each other e [ADIDAS'S SLING BAG]
RX: WHITE
JW: GREEN
AL: BLACK

hahaha...
so happy to have a new bag..
my last bag i brought for this yr n next yr..
hahahaha...

WISH... ... ...
-TO DO DRINK
-TO GO PUB
-TO GET MY PAY
-TO GET A NEW FONE ASAP
-TO GO SHOPPING WIF NO WORRIES BOUT MONEY
~~-he DON MSG N CALL MI~~
-~~TO HAVE...........~~

i'm free on 6th dec..
wanna date mi out must let mi know asap..
hahahahahaha..

gtg..
c ya..

2005-11-23T14:48:00.000+08:00

haiz!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so bored at home..

tml will be my 1st of work.

so sad lor..

now den start work..

haiz..

hope dat i can pass e test tml den i will be able to continue working everyday..

hehex..

feeling so scare now..

may god bless mi dat everything will go smoothly..

omg my heart is going to drop out soon..

haiz..

i have nth much to talk bout..

gtg c ya..

Let Me Die

2005-11-08T15:40:00.000+08:00

Let Me Die

Are we at war tonight,
will there be angels whispering to me good night,
don´t wake when the lightning strikes
my heart for you is true,
let no one take that from you
time is running tight,
can´t change from wrong to right
So I´ll close my eyes and dream a little
Just like how we used to be baby

It´s time to say fare-well,
No need to cry or feeling sorrow
It´s alright，all in the book of life
heaven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go

I will love you till the end of time
with every breath of mine，I´ll hold you by my side
but I´ll rest in peace，my sweet heart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
only you can stop the rain tonight
only you can change my world
from black to white
So I´ll close my eyes and dream a little more

Are we at war tonight,
will there be angels whispering to me good night,
don´t wake when the lightning strikes
heaven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go

I will love you till the end of time
with every breath of mine，I´ll hold you by my side
but I´ll rest in peace，my sweet heart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
only you can stop the rain tonight
only you can give me strength to fight,
till the sky is burning，It´s the end of time

look ahead tomorrow, a long and winding road
keep the faith of mine don´t let it go
you´re the only reason night ain´t growing cold
what will I do，without you

I will love you till the end of time
with every breath of mine，I´ll hold you by my side
but I´ll rest in peace，my sweet heart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
only you can stop the rain tonight
only you can make my world so bright，
life，no longer empty，
with you in my heart，In my heart

without me

2005-11-08T15:36:00.000+08:00

Without me

Season changing
Another year goes by too slow
Blurry memories
Must be getting old
Too much pot and heroine
Too much crack and coke
I am waiting devastating oh

Anytime at all
Just hear this song
Any days too long
Just turn it on
With or without me holding you at all
Anytime at all
Just hear this song
Any days too long
Just turn it on
With or without me holding you at all

Take a pink one
Pick a red one Sir Devil
Give me a reason
To be standing tall
Could you wake me form misery
Don´t wanna be alone
Walls are closing I am floating oh

2005-11-07T16:03:00.000+08:00

today's paper is okie la..
got some qn don know how to do..
but anw..
its at least easier den e prelims papers frm other sch..
yeah..
i left 1 more papers to go..
dat's it..
den don have to go back sch anymore for this yr..

after dat i wen home change den wen to allene hse at tampines..
yeah!!! i'm e 1st person to enter her new hse..
lolx..
not bad la..
still look quite new..
hmmm...
nicer than my hse can liao..
hahahahaha....
den wen tampines mall to buy my working attire..
n my black pant got strips wan..
i scare they don allow la..
n is kind of wired when i wear it wif e polo white tee n blacks heels..
den wen to her hse again..
to paint our nails..
lolx..
so vain rite.
hahahaha...
wat to do..
we r girls..
of cos will be vain mah..

anw i'm so happy to get a new job..
i'll be working at precious thought frm 12 nov onwards..
at PS..
come n visit mi okie..

haiz..
1 more paper to go..
don feel scare at all..
feeling nth..
just lyk usual test lyk dat..
haiz..
actually i think i sure must retake next yr wan lor..
nv even put in my best to do e paper..
how to pass lyk dat?
rite..
haiz..
hoping it will finish fast..
don feel lyk goin back sch anymore..
feel more lyk working instead..
hahaha...

anyway..
cant think of anymore things to say alr..
i shall stop here den..

BORING!!! BORING!!!

2005-11-05T22:53:00.000+08:00

today was so boring...
morning wake up den start studying..
doin all the corrections for e other sch's paper..
den later..
after lunch.. no mood to study alr..
can not concentrate at all..
haiz..
how to make it lyk dat?
my aim...
my goal..
all gone alr..
1 more will be e paper 1 alr..
not even prepared..
still got so many thing still don understand..
how??
HOW????

haiz...
tml morning still have tuition..
hate goin tuition e day before e paper..
cuz Mrs Hsu will teach as a group not e 1 by 1 type..
den it will ber hard for mi to ask qn..
haiz..
how????

really must pray hard everyday dat i can make it to achieve my goal for this Os math...

GOD BLESS MI!!!
MAY E LORD SHOPWER MI WIF BLESSING N MAY I KEEP CALM N KNOW HOW TO DO ALL E QNS..
MAY I KEEP MY MIND CLEAR N AWAKE TO DO ALL E QNS N RMB ALL E FORMULAE...
AMEN!!!

FEELING SO SCARE NOW...
how?????????
just cant concentrate while i study...
all i think is to play n to go find job n start working..

anw.. gtg...
GOOD LUCK TO ALL THOSE TAKING O-LVL!!!
JIA YOU WOR!!!

hello!!!

2005-10-26T12:08:00.000+08:00

hey.. this is our photos.. saw that? hahaha.. taken after work.. so tiring can...
n we r all road idiots...
lost our way.. frm cine take 190 to bukit pajang den take 67 to chua chu kang... den take 159 back to cp. den finally i'm home..
plan to go main office at ubi..
but landed up at don know where lolx..
n we 3 [dan, hwee, mi] lyk crazy women lyk dat...
running n running for the bus..
but i ran e fastest.. hahahas..
lolx.. anw on e bus hwee called MAx n told he a lie.. dat mi, dan n hwee will have sch so cannot work alr..
actually e real fact is we don wan to work alr..
but dan still wan to work.. but we persuade her not to work..
lolx.. so bad rite.. but is gd not to work there..
tiring n hard to promote e stuff..
n dat is my 1st job this yr..
1st day of my work n my last day of work.. lolx...
okie..
i'm lyk so hungry, tired, my body is aching..
haiz..
miss my show [a frog turned into a prince]
haiz. nvm.. shall borrow frm ppl..
hahahas.. reach at bout 8.30..
den wen hougang mall buy dinner for myself.. den back home again..
ya.. i almost forgot..
i was eating snake just now during my work..
cuz i have some job interview den dat Max don let mi off..
so i run away after my lunch break..
hahahas...
n nv went back again...
lolx...
wen to mit sk.. together jw..
n guess wat we went to precious thought for interview..
n dat person say we employ us..
so happy...
but i can onli work after 11 nov..
sad case..
dan will be working on 1 nov..
nat will be working on 13 nov..
n mi.. waiting for my Os math to finish..
which is on 11 nov..
scare n happy...
scare:
cuz didnt really know wat's vectors, shear, stretch, probability..
pray dat e O-lvl papers will not be so hard..
or else i will be wasting my time, effort..
happy:
cuz i can go crazy over celebrating n playing...
lolx...
okie.. gtg.. c ya..

N-level's OVER!!!

2005-10-14T15:30:00.000+08:00

HURRARY!!!!
N-level is O V E R!!!!
i'm damn happy...
but 3 more wks will be O-level e-math alr...
just hope dat i can achieve my aims!!!
that 3 wks really must work hard sia..
n plus i'll miss dat 3 wks holiday enjoying..
btw..
i'll wont be blogging anything dat does not happen or bout wat i think or feel alr..
that's it...
i think it will cuz alot of misunderstanding which i does not wan it to happen...

okie.. shall talk bout my days after my N-level..
on 12/10:
wen back sch at 2 for o-level e-math lesson..
n becuz of this lesson i cant go SENTOSA!!!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAIZ... I MISS MY SENTOSA SUN-TANNING N FUN LOOKING AT PPL N E SKY..
LOLX..
den on 13/10:
wen to tampines, bugis n town to look for jobs..
lolx..
really wanted to work sia..
cuz i don have money liao..
nid money to buy more clothes for myself...
lolx.. doin something..
okie.. other den that i oso wen back sch for e-math lesson..
sian la...
e math paper dat i did was so damn hard can..
all in nid of calculators wan..
how to pass my math?

haiz..
wanna go out on tue for shopping....
yeah!!!!
lolx...
gtg anw..
got nth to say alr..

i finally know.............

2005-10-08T19:58:00.000+08:00

i'm disappointed..
i'm lost..
i'm sad..
i'm scare..
i;m confused..
i'm hurt..
i'm heartbroken..

today didn't go for tuition..
n i had a gd talk wif [w] [not to be said]
i ask him/her wat kind of person m i to her?
she told mi dat i'm kind..
but alot of ppl think dat i'm proud..
but i'm not...
get it...

is it wrong 5 to have e highest marks in class?
Is it wrong to aim to be in e top 5 in class?
Is it wrong to have a very high goal on urself?
Is it wrong to feel happy getting e highest marks?
Is it wrong to be very quiet?
Is it wrong to talk bout wat i think?
Is it wrong to agree wif wat other ppl say?

for all e Qn above!!!!!
my Ans is:
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!
I SUPER DISAPPOINTED BY WAT SHE SAY!!![for e 1st 2 qn]
now i know wat kind of person i m to them...
i wan to get so high is not i wan to be proud or wat..
okie.. i DON WAN TO BE LOOKED DOWN AGAIN!!!!!
do ur understand e kind of feeling before?
been looked down n been compared frm sec1 to now...
wat wateva i do i just cant reach dat standard...
she is lyk 1st for e level throughout her secondary yrs life..
but i cant.. i'm onli in e top 20 position...
so wat if i'm in dat top 20 position?
at least i try my best lor...
i just cant get it...
y does ppl always think or look bout mi in a diff way...
now really sad to hear that...

i find dat i should a distance away frm them..
cuz i don wan to be hurt by wat they think bout mi..
i have not been myself for e past few months alr..
i'm stuck at home most of my time...
haiz...

does e work 'take care cuz i care'
really mean it...
i don think so now...
[w] asked mi who is my close frenz, best frenz, gd frenz..
my Ans: I DON KNOW....
i don know who is e true wan...
i really doubt..
cuz i say sum 1 den she she she's not..
but ask her y?
she say just not lor..

i thought they really understand mi but they r not...
i'm lyk always e 1 out of point..
when i don think so..
when i'm relax.. they ask mi to relax..
lolx..

i still enjoy my primary sch life..
i hate secondary life...
i hate it..
i hate myself oso..
y do i have communication prob..
y m i not socialble..

i think i really talk alot today wif ..
e 1st time ever since pri sch..
haiz.. i think i'm alr very obvious in wat i'm saying..
i believe u should know bout it..

troubled

2005-09-17T13:40:00.000+08:00

i'm confused..
i'm irritated..
i'm loss..
i'm trouble..
i'm having all sorts of feeling right now...

i'm not stress..
i'm not in a exam mood..
cant concentrate on my studies..

WHAT'S WRONG WIF MI!!!!!!!!!!

on tue, i went wif dan to town to pass almeric his b'day present..
he oso brought along his friend..
den i think his frenz is cute..
den dat day after i went home alone..
dan say he wan my no.
but i don wan..
cuz i had enough of guys!!!!
they r irritating..
they r childish..
they SUCKZ ALOT!!!!!!!

i just got rid of 1 den another cum.. wat is this!!!
i don wan to have such a prob again n again..
non stop...
i cant stand it alr.
if u really like dat person u should give in to him/her..
but not to bring dat person to her/his wits end!!!!
GET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
enough is enough...
that's the end.. okie..

i feel like drinking again..
s h i t ...
i'm really addicted to it..
okie.. i shall try not to be think bout it..

okie.. guys get out of my mind right now..
okie.. shall learn to concentrate on my studies now..
i'll won;t be replying any of e msg.. [except for sch mates' msg]
so don bother to waste ur money..
i wan to fully concentrate for my Ns..

2005-09-10T17:22:00.000+08:00

hey hey!!!
i'm back after so long time..
its time to update my blog..
hehex..

okie.. just finish my ss n chinese Ns paper..
very scare for e result sia..
haiz.. shall not think bout it..
since its over..
yuppie..
now onli left wif 6 more papers to go..
which is on oct..
cool la..
time really pass so fast..

on 7/9
i went for qian yu's bbq..
its was e worst bbq i ever went..
cuz e 2e ppl thought dat its their class bbq so chase guides n outside frenz out of e place..
both r real angry lor..
aiya..
shall not talk bout it la..
but i finally get to drink..
n we r lyk drunk!!!
mi, karylan, kesai, qian yu..
e onli clear minded wan is cherly, anna, kendra..
haiz....
i really drink alot sai..
1st time i drink so much when i'm outside...
shall not drink again..
till.........
my own chalet!!!!

yuppie...
i'm goin to open a chalet..
frenz must cum okie..
hehex...
which is after my exam...

yuppie.. i finally change my blogskin..
n i'm so happy.. cuz its so nice...
hehex..

i got nth to say..
so gtg off now..
c ya..

pre-exam stress

2005-09-02T19:29:00.000+08:00

hey hey!!!
just cum back frm my study..
wen to have lunch wif sk, jasmine, allene, mira..
at rivervale mall..
den after dat was like staying at e food-court to study wif jasmine..
she very serious when studying lor..
1st time c her so serious..
lolx..
so funny lor..
when eating lunch..
was lyk saying sk..
lolx..
shall not say here..
later she saw i die..
she will angry de..
lolx...

today most of us is so crazy lor..
like wat zhen say..
PRE-EXAM STRESS!!!
lolx...
dan was like frm IMH cum out like dat..
helping us to pack our things..
den making a fool of herself..
but it was fun..
oh ya...
grace cut her hair den all of us call her shuai ke..
lolx.
she is so cool lor..
lolx..
okie..
shall stop here...

frenz!!!!
must mug hard okie!!!!
3 more days to N-level chinese n ss paper..
GOOD LUCK !!!
ALL E BEST!!!!
MAY GOD BLESS ALL OF US!!!
MUG HARD!!!!

last wks of term 3!!!

2005-09-01T16:50:00.000+08:00

time have really passed so fast, e NRP had finally ended on mon..
really feel tired of doin all those papers..
BUT i learn some things while doin e papers...
at least i know how to do soure-based qn now wif all e techni..
yuppie.. actually mrs lim is a very nice teacher but is just dat her lesson is so boring..
hahahahaha... feeling so bad cuz i always nv listen in class...
lolx...

once again:
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL STAFFS IN SJC!!!!!
SJC ROCKZ MAN!!!!
even thought i used to hate some teacher in sjc n some rule n ways they run e sch..
too strict, care onli on e express ppl...
haiz..
but feel quite touched by dem even through i'm not in gd mood ytr..
but really enjoy e performance done by e teachers...
rmb Mrs Chan said:"SJC teachers will nv dissappoint us"
haiz.. at 1st alots of us thought dat we shld not buy anything for them..
cuz they r so bad.. we got nth for youth day!!!
n sum more mon they gave us e youth day present is a clock!!!
A CLOCK AS A PRESENT!!!!
haiz.. nvm.. but mine is spoiled...
okie.. shall forgive n forget..
loxl.. i finally learnt a new phrase..
lolx... okie.. still can rmb e fun i had in sch ytr..
so funny... SJC TEACHERS SHALL HAVE E BEST ACTORS N ACTRESS AWARD!!!
THEY ROCKZ OKIE...
LOVE YA LOTS!!!
erm.. except for ms turtle chao..
den we r all so high cuz of e belated youth day performance..
we do wave together as a whole sec 4 n 5..
so fun... den is like at e end of e performance we shouted:
MAMA ONG, MAMA NG, WE LOVE YOU!!!!
HAHAHAA... e feeling cum back!!!
e mermories cum back too..
like last yr we love dem so much..
really love dem alot man..
den after dat mi, allene n jas went out of sch to take e roses frm allene cousin..
e roses are for mrs lim..
cuz she's really very good..
den at teachers' rm i met into muikheng n frenz..
erm..........
yup.. den we met again at mrs lim's table...
mrs lim gave us a hug n said:" tue i'll be there for ur"
"must study hard okie!"
lolx.. i replied:" we will"
lolx.. den went back class to wait for mrs ng n ms ong so dat we can give her e present on behalfed of e whole class [4B]
den is like e bag sad to say...
its so auntie.. don suit ms ong at all..
den mrs ng's present is a watch..
its so nice.. got star wan.. but sad to say its a free gift frm e bag..
lolx.. e bag is really very auntie i don understand y SK, Debra n laura taste is so auntie wan..
yucks!!!!
its worst than carrying plastic bags..
cuz we ask ms ong whether she got bag..
she said she carry plastics bags..
lolx.. sometimes big, sometimes small...
den all diff colours wan.. lolx..
ms ong is so unique..
lolx.. den we gave Mr yeo 'winnie e pooh'
so cute.. den he said he worn e shirt dat we brought for him..
lolx.. he went ard boosting bout e 'winnie e pooh' dat we gave he..
lolx... den we gave ms chan pei yi e mi to you teddy bear..
so cute n sweet lor..
lolx... den she showed us her outside photo..
quite pretty la...
lolx.. i got alots of hugs frm e teachers..
like ms yeo, ms lim, ms chan, mrs lim, etc.
really enjoy myself..
nv regret goin to sch..
hahahahaha..

ya.. on tue when we have PE lesson,
she booked almost half of e class..
goodness...
just becuz we r late for lesson..
so lame okie..
haiz.. anw its not my 1st time kana booked..
lolx.. c i'm so naughty rite..
lolx..
den all very bu shuai wif her..
e worst is e counsellor...
cuz they will have double booking..
feel so poor thing for them..
haiz..
but our class rockz okie.. we r quite united at times..

okie.. shall stop here..
goin out to buy present for debra n collect e teachers' day present..
yuppie.. goin off now.. c ya..

happi teachers' day!!!

2005-08-31T16:18:00.000+08:00

today is teachers' day!!!
HURRARY!!!
actually not goin to sch today wan!!
cuz julie n aunt goin back den is morning fight mah..
so wanna go n c dem off wan..
but in e end..
i'm forced to go to sch!!!
so i cry n while waiting for bus, i think bout it..
so i cry again..
in sch.. during e mass when they have 2 sad songs..
make mi think bout it again..
so i cry again..
when i reach home n lay down on e bed, i think of e things again..
n its make mi cry again cuz i'm reading e notes wrote by julie..
today i cry for more than 4 times alr.
i'm really sad n dissappointed lor..
firstly ytr my mum ssid i can don nid to go sch if i don wan to..
so i'm real happi..
but den when its in e morning today,
i'm went to bath n change into home clothes..
i was about to leave e hse to pass yizhen e presents for e teachers..
who knows, my mummy say "u not goin sch to give dem e present mah"
"y must u pass it to ur frenz?"
i'm lyk what e hell!!
how can i leave e sch when i'm alr in e sch!!!
isnt it worst.. playing traut!!
i'm real dissappointed..
she is like say this ytr den she say another thing today!!
she still can say "i onli know how to make my own descision"
"nv discuss wif mi n didnt i say i'm goin to sch today?"
i didnt even thought of goin sch today..
n is lyk i know wat i'm doin okie..
how can i leave e sch half way through e programmes without any parent to accompany mi to leave?
this is e sch rule mah!!!
i just cant control my tear frm flowing doen my cheek!!!
its was so embrassing..
n dat guy[1] is standing just beside mi onli lor!!!
OMG!!!!
n in e bus i saw dat guy[2] again!!!
my eyes is so damn red lor!!!
n most ppl is lyk looking at mi!!
i had nv cry in e public b4!!
so pai sei!!!
lolx..

okie n i nv regret goin to sch today!!!
it was fun when its e teachers' day performance cum belated youth day performance!!!
so fun...
lolx..
especially e belated youth day performance!!!
so funny!! [SJC IDOL]
lolx..
i'm getting more n more in love wif this sch!!!
n e teachers!!!

n guess who i saw today!!
i saw 'dem'
who is e 'dem'?
hahahaha lolx..
its muikheng, yan cheng, stella, peggy n their frenz..
they came back sch to c e teachers..
haiz.. actually quite miss them la..
so long nv c them alr..
miss e fun n mermories we had last time..
haiz.. now oso nv talk to them alr.

haiz okie la..
i'll stop here i goin nth more to say..
i'll miss julie n aunt wan..
even thought i wanted them to leave earlier..
cuz i'm always kana scolded for nth..
n julie is irritating mi!!!
HAHAHAHAHA lolx...
haiz..

5 more days to Ns chinese n ss paper...
i so scare at 1st but now i'm totally numb..
haiz just hope i can make it..
i'll be mugging hard for it..
mugg hard my frenz..
wish u guys ALL E BEST!!!
GOOD LUCK!!!!

last but not least, HAPPIE TEACHERS' DAY!!!

mock test wks!!

2005-08-27T21:56:00.000+08:00

so sick of social studies n chinese alr..
this whole week do chinese n ss till crazy sia..
but i oso nv really put in my effort in my ss..
cuz i onli do SBQ QN..
e structure qn all nv study..
so nv do at all..
died alr la...
sure cannot make it on 6th sep wan..
haiz..
okie.. i'm so slack now..
how ah.. my exam mood is not there anymore..

okie anw.. i'm so tired of goin to sch..
every day is lyk all the same..
no diff at all..
doin the same old things again n again..
haiz..
just hope dat 30 plus more days is goin to end soon..
i'm really very tired alr..

my aunt n cousin are goin back Dubai on 31st aug..
so fast!!! 3 mths is gone..
n sadening.. i cant send dem off..
cuz i have to go to sch...
sick la...
just hope dat day half day... end sch at 10..
den will be great man...
hahahaha

okie.. shall talk bout my wk..
i think i'm having a huge distance away frm e 'hot pink gang' ppl..
just don know y!!!
when they ask to go out...
i always reject wan...
i think i'm becoming more n more lyk e '1 n onli' person alr..
anw i got nth to talk bout..
gtg den...
c ya..

STRESS!!!!

2005-08-21T22:10:00.000+08:00

STRESS!!!
WHY IS EVERYONE TALKING BOUT STRESS????
am i really stress???
NO I'M NOT!!!
yes i really am!!
i just did a stress survey this wk..
n all the things there really true...
it did happen to mi now!!!
still have 2 more months to finish Ns..
i'm waiting for it to end..
i just cant take it alr..
i really cant stand myself anymore..
i'm getting more n more irritating n unreasonable n i just threw my temper as i wan...

jas n dan:
i'm real sorry on fri!!
i don know wat's goin on to mi!!
i really don know..
u guys can say i'm having PMS or MOOD-SWING..
as ur lyk..
i think dat i'm have dat too...
i'm real sorry..

What i NID to do!!!
i guess i'm not goin to talk to anyone for this few wks!!!
i nid to be alone..
i nid to claim down..
i nid to relax..
i nid to reflect on myself..
i nid to bi men si gou...

okie shall not talk bout it anymore!!
n guess wat i cried on thurs..
when i'm goin to slp..
this is the uncountable time i cried..
tears just rolled down my eyes when i'm lying on my bed to slp..
what's goin on to mi..
this yr.. is really a bad yr for mi!!
nw i know..
i cant control myself..
i don know how to resolve stress..
well, forget la..
i'm alr helpless...
mi myself cant help myself..
who else can help mi???
NO ONE IN THE WORLD CAN!!!

okie let mi tell u more bout my prelim!!!
i'm quite happi wif my marks!!
cuz i manage to get 6 pts n passed my eng!!
okie let mi tell u bout my wonderful marks!!!
english: 50.3% (5) [hahaha, so risky!! just pass at least!!]
e-math: 79% (1) [pleased]
chinese: 79.3% (1) [pleased]
a-math: 63% (4) [at least didn't waste my effort!!]
science: 53% (5) [dat day sumthing personal happen.. so nv study.. ]
humanities: 41% (U) [as usual FAIL!!]
okie n guess wat ms ong say bout mii???
she say: "i'm a polite n respectful gal.
i'm a dependable n does things well on my own.
i'm sensible n show interest in her studies."
lolx!!! mi?????
r u sure is mi?????
i don even think so!!!
actually i oso don know wat kind of person i am...
i onli know i'm bad temper,
having PMS,
unreasonable,
hard to get along wif,
having mood-swing...

haiz.. i really hate myself..
i believe ppl out there who know mi oso hate mi alot..
wo xin li yo su..
i wanna thanks my "close friend" to be so gd to mi..
tolerate my temper n attitude...
thanks for all the $ u guys spend on mi for my b'day!!!
thanks for being my friend too even through u all cant stand mi..]
i really wan to give a BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF U!!!!

health:
i'm sick for more den 1 months alr..
now is getting worse..
my fever is always on n off...
my cough is getting worse.. [cough till stomach pain]
n my flu goodness..
i hate to be sick...
cant eat this, cant eat that..
haiz..
to be continued next wk..
i got alot of things to say..
anw mummy nagging..
haiz.. gtg c ya..
hope dat i know wat to write for my mock chinese n ss paper..

STRESS MI!!!

2005-08-12T16:14:00.000+08:00

haiz.. wat's wrong wif mi nowadays?
i'm lyk having mood swing lor..
in very terrible bad mood...
i'm so sorry to offend anyone..
especially those who is close to mi..
i'm totally lyk having PMS!!!
i cant take jokes at all after my mid-yr onward..
how... i really very stress now...
i'm under pressure frm frenz n parents n sis..
i quarrel wif my mummy again..
this time i really cant take it...
i say wateva things that is in my heart out..
i cant take it alr..
she is the 1 who started it lor..
n she slap mi.. that is the 1st time this yr..
i really feel hurt lor...
n e next day my eye is sore..
but i say i nv slp cuz i don wan to explain anything..
frm den on i have a very quick temper..
i really will go crazy man..
i really hope i do well for my perlim..
cuz next fri there will be PTM again..
i'm scare..
i don wan to get another scolding frm 'em again..
i don wan to get hurt again..
my heart is alr broken..
n it cant be broken into any smaller...

i'm realy worry for my N-level!!!
its just 24 more days to my chinese n Social studies written paper..

5/09 *chinese paper 1 &2
6/09 *social studies & chinese listening
3/10 *english paper 1 & 2 & history
4/10 *e-math paper 1
6/10 *combine science
7/10 *e-math paper 2
10/10 *a-math paper 1
11/10 *a-math paper 2

haiz.. worry, worry n still worry..
how... i'm scare of my english...
sure fail wan...
but i must have faith in myself rite.. [dat person told mi]
i sure can make it wan...
but i'm still very scare...
i really hope dat it will be soon ended..
haiz...

once again.. i'm sry to zhen, dan, lene, jas...
sorry to throw temper on ur..
i know dat u guys r really a nice frenz whom i'll always treasure..
n i oso know dat u guy r trying to tolerate mi temper.. n attitude..
i'm really really sorry....

anw.. i'm real crazy over JUN YANG!!!!
the project superstar..
he's always e best..
hahahahahaha

okie.. anw.. i must really mug hard nw..
all the best to especially jasmine n allene..
don give up okie.. just becuz u fail dat subjects..
u must tell urself u can make it wan..
okie..
we must still go to sec 5 together... okie..
must have faith in urself okie...
u can make it wan...

anw.. i always say dat but i dont even think i can make it to sec 5 myself..
i have totally lost faith in myself..
n i lost the actual self of mi...
who i'm i?
RUIXIN??????
i'm i?
i lost the cheerful n crazy n nice n friendly mi...
wat does happy means?
there is no such word in my dictionary...
i'm really worry n scare...

haiz..
can anyone help mi wif my tag-board...
it still cant works!!!
can anyone help mi??????
who is the kind soul who can help mi?

anyway gtg alr..
MUG HARD EVERYONE!!!
U GUYS R ALWAYS E BEST!!!
ALL THE BEST FOR UR Ns n Os..
JIA YOU WOR!!

EnD oF pReLiM!!! hurray!!!

2005-08-08T19:05:00.000+08:00

i'm back after so long of stress & problems & pressure frm frenz & parent!!!
i'm so tired after all..
i didn't study for my science lor..
i'm dead alr la..
sure fail wan..
haiz..
okie..
my frenz say i too stress but i know i'm stress but not dat stress la..
btw i really wan to concentrate on my study..
really..
anw...
haiz.. n i'm having mood swing very easily nowadays..
just don know why..
i don wan it to happen to mi..
i wan my mi n onli mi charater!!! lol!!!

i'm so excited!!!
tml is NATIONAL DAY PARADE!!!
YUPPIE!!! HURRARY!!!
n i'm goin to NDP!!! yeah!!!
my 1st time lei..
Kool!!!
okie.. anw goin wif my juniors!!
cuz they preforming..
hey guides!!
i wish u guys good luck tml..
just enjoy urself don be nervous okie..
GOOD LUCK!!!
ALL THE BEST OKIE!!!
i'll be there for ur okie..
don worry!!! be happie!!!!

okie gtg alr.
n that guy name donminickhooweiming!!!!
i don know who u r.. but i don lyk ppl to cheat mi..
n i oso don lyk ppl to betray mi..
so if u do that i don know wat i'll do to you!!!
get it..

STRESS DAYS!!!

2005-07-18T16:53:00.000+08:00

haiz.. long time nv come online alr.
so sian can..
actually not free lor..
n my com internet spoil..
so dat's y i cant go online..
n now my cousin n aunt cum back for holiday..
so not so free la..
u know wat..
next wk will be my prelim..
n i haven even start studying..
n i feel nth at all lor..
die alr la..
i dont wan to fail again..
n is lyk n level is just 1 mth more to go..
how????
god pls give mi some motivation..
haiz..
okie i just finish my eng oral..
that was okie la..
still can make it lor..
erm.. but i too nervous keep saying e wrong words..
haiz..
den is lyk my class is so united..
we hold each other hands together in a circle den we pray for each others n of cos ourselves...
so cool lor..
den is lyk we r lyk so nervous but we got a clown wif us..
laura.. she is our clown..
she made us laugh lyk wat lyk dat..
make mi stomach pain..
hahahahahahahaha...
den mrs ong oso wif us... she laugh till she cry...
hahahahahaha...
okie..
anw...
yesterday, i'm sick...
i have fever, cold, cough, diaorrea....
so weak lor..
so i slpt e whole day...
haiz...
okie..
gtg..
this few weeks got alot of hw..
always cannot finsih..
so i do half way here n there..
at least i got do..
hahahahaa... that's mi...
lolx...

class chalet..

2005-06-20T12:35:00.000+08:00

haiz.. i wen for the class chalet..
actually dont feel lyk goin wan..
but i still wen..
n reach there bout 7 lyk dat..
so late rite..
haiz.. den i saw a very cute baby.. call febby..
so cute.. but i think i spell e name wrongly..
hahahahahaha... lolx..
anw.. he at 1st don wan mi... haiz..
but in the end i finally get to play wif him... hahahaha...
so cute..
haiz... very boring la...
den wen to look for ruiwen.. cuz she's lost...
n guess wan.. i got to see her bf...
erm.... quite gd looking la...
not bad...
hahahaha.. lolx....
okie.. got to stop here..
c ya..
yawn.. so tried..

2005-06-18T13:28:00.000+08:00

haiz...
1 more week to go!!!
hahahaha... lolx..
erm.....
anw.. how ah...
class chalet?
i dare not ask....
haiz....
n now don feel lyk goin oso...
haiz.. don know la...
tml my aunt n cousin is cuming back...
yeah!!!!!
so great...
lolx...
but adriena is leaving tml...
den tml i oso got class chalet...
haiz...
just don know how to ask...
haiz...
don feel lyk updating liao.. so c ya...

rotten... mii

2005-06-16T18:26:00.000+08:00

haiz.. i'm so sian nowadays...
y ah..
i oso don know..
just know dat i'm super sian...
plus moody...
cuz i've been rotting at home for very long alr...
now i'm so rotten.. cuz i nid fresh air...
have been lock up at home for too long alr..
i wan to go shopping!!!!
i wan to go watch movie!!!
i wan to go enjoy my holiday!!!
i wan...
i wan...
i wan...
i wan...

haiz.. i just wan alot alot of thing...
i just take it....
goin crazy soon...
haiz.. wat is my mind all about...
i just cant concentrate on my studies...
wat m i thinking about?
haiz... i realli not thinking bout any1.. nor do i lyk any1...
so wat m i so confused bout...
i just don get it...
haiz.. just stop here la..
i got tno mood to update alr.

2005-06-15T16:58:00.000+08:00

A light hearted look at life as it is sometimes...
http://upchucky.net/~upchucky/flash-fun/farmer-donkey.swf
very funny oso... hahahaha.. lolx..

class chalet latest update!!!

2005-06-13T18:19:00.000+08:00

latest update!!!!

Date: 19 & 20 june
Venue: netheravon bungalow D
bus transport: 29 frm tampines interchange

pls pass this msg down to all 4b ppl!!! importance!!!
n pls contact mi whether u r goin or not!!! okie...
thanks!!! n let mi know if u r staying over at e chalet okie!!! thanks alot..
n i nid u guys to bring food for BBQ, so i nid to confirm who is cuming n bring wat food... thanks ppl.. Hope to c ur there!!!

p.s: ruixin: 97830724.. must called mi okie..

sat!!! shopping!!!

2005-06-11T23:25:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired!!!
n guess how i cum out..
i just wen to bath den wen to change n just left the hse..
n say i will be back before 8..
so i left.. just lyk dat...
hahahahaha... 1st time do dat...
cuz they don allow mi to go out...
but i bag i cant go out again.. until my aunt cum to s'pore..
so excited.. waiting for em to cum back..
so dat i can go shopping... without paying..
hahahaha....
just now went to town wif dan n zhen
go there of cos is go shopping la..
n its was jean day for all of us..
hahahaha... lolx...
n guess wat i'm e earliest...
the 1st time i'm early den them..
so my whole journey to town was lyk so boring..
so i decided to talk to qian yu..
so we talk for lyk 1 hr plus n den zhen cum...
so we wn to far east to mit dan.. n she was the last 1...
hahahaha... lolx...
ya n i brought a blossom devil polo tee cum hair band cum baclet..
zhen brought a blossom bear polo tee.. while we gave dan the white belt..
hahahaha... lolx..
den i did really have fun even thought i cant make myself be high..
just don know why..
n guess wat i saw 'him' at cine wif his group of frenz..
okie.. anw zhen left at ard 6 lyk dat.. den left mi n dan.. so we decided to go eat/ drink den wen back to find sarah n janet...
den we go back dere, sarah say don nid.. so we left n walk ard town..
very tired.. cuz i not in the mood...
we wen herren to walk den we stop to look at the "clown"
suddenly, he look at us.. n wanted to link dan..
so funny.. so we quickly run away..
hahahaha lolx...
before dat was mi kana cuz we was lyk walking out of cine n the man cum to mi ask mi to ans qn..
but i don know.. so i run away...
lolx..
so pei sei lei.. so many ppl was lyk looking..
okie.. wow.. town was so cowded wif ppl becuz its the 'ART FESTIVAL'..
so there is lyk alot of things to c..
after dat we left.. n i'm alone again...
haiz.. hate to be alone...
anw reach home at 8.. just nice...
hahahaha... lolx...
n i'll rmb our plan on 20th june....
SHOPPING!!!!!!!!

class chalet!!!

2005-06-10T15:55:00.000+08:00

Attention!!!
4B PLS READ THIS N PASS AROUND TO ALL ALL 4 B PPL...

hey ppl!!! class chalet is still on!!!

CLASS CHALET!!!!
ITS A 4B CLASS CHALET!!!! 2005

Date: 19 & 20 june
Venue:
bus transport:

pls pass this msg down to all 4b ppl!!! importance!!!
n pls contact mi whether u r goin or not!!! okie...
thanks!!! n let mi know if u r staying over at e chalet okie!!! thanks alot..
n i nid u guys to bring food for BBQ, so i nid to confirm who is cuming n to bring wat food... thanks ppl.. Hope to c ur there!!!

all e detail will be update again.. okie..

p.s: ruixin: 97830724.. must called mi okie..
HOpe to c ur there!!!!

31/05

2005-05-31T23:57:00.000+08:00

haiz..
i'm still so tired..
today still must go back sch help to dry all e equipment n tidy e store..
sorrie.. n i'm suppose to mit cherly at 8...
n i overslept.. i wake up at 8.30..
sorrie cherly..
anw.. i asked anna qian yu, karylan to help..
or not i will drop dead..
thank you so much...
okie.. anw.. i had a fight wif my mom today..
cuz of my result..
i did extrem badly for this mid-yr..
i did work hard lor.. but is just dat my heart is not dere at all..
P.S: mummy.. how u do know dat i nv work hard/ study at all..
i got lor.. summore i did it 1 month b4 e mid-yr..
u just don't _stand mi at all...
all u know is i'm notti, i play n play nv even study..
but e problem is how u know whether i study anot..
didn't u c mi work very very hard 1 day b4 e paper..
cuz i've alr did all my notes..
is just left e mermorising..
i seriously think dat a mother shld be e 1 hu _stand their daughter beta than their frenz/teacher...
frm e start ever since pri 3, i don't think dat u can be fit to be my mother..
when u don't even _stand mi n know what i really wan n nid..
i really wish to have a happy family..
whereby.. every1 live in harmony..
no 1 looked down on any 1..
i tell myself lotas n lots of times..
not to be looked down by my sis...
NEVER EVER AGAIN..
but i still failed...
i'm not those kind of gal who don know wat i'm doin..
i know wat i'm doin..
n i plan properly wateva things i'm doin..
pls don be lyk MS MARY CHARLES can..
don even listen to her words..
she cant say/ insult mi when she had nv even teach mi b4..
she say things just by looking at my face...
i cant stand it anymore..
i will FOREVER RMB wat MARY CHARLES SAY BOUT MI:
THAT'S E END OF U.. U CAN GO STRAIGHT TO ITE!!!
wat the H E L L can...
i'm oso very disappointed wif myself n my result..
u thought is onli u who is disappointed..
MIII oso... i set goal for myself but i just cant fulfill it..
i hate this world.. y is it always mi hu causes all this problems..
SIS:
U THINK I LYK TO C 'EM QUARELL IZZIT..
U THINK I LYK TO CAUSES 'EM QUARREL BECUZ OF MI IZZIT...
I DON'T.. Y IS IT DAT ALWAYS MI WHO CAUSES 'EM TO QUARREL...
i had enough lor..
can ur just give mi a break.. i realli cant take it any more..
now i'm no diff frm a jail bird...
everyday was tie up at home..
i really had enough, i really nid a break...
n pls i wan my freedom back...
nw is lyk wherever i go, i'm control by my mother..
I DON'T WAN!!!!
I JUST CANT TAKE IT ALR!!!!
just becuz of dat stupid mary charles's words,
i've lost my freedom n was been blasted everyday..
i've been crying for don know how many night n days alr.
GIVE A BREAK MAN...
I NID FRESH AIR...
I REALLY CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE...
I REALLY HAVE ENOUGH...
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Girl Guide Camp 2005

2005-05-29T23:33:00.000+08:00

Aye-bah!!! Aye- bah!!!
finally i'm back frm camp..
i'm lyk so damn tired..
its was fun but tired n all the leaders have kana alot of scolding
so sick can..
especially day 1:
we were really in a mess man..
n the 1st 1 who get the scolding was dawn..
cuz she was the day i/c..
cuz she nv do anything at all..
so she got alot of scolding..
n summore i really delay alot of time..
so there is lyk alot of activities had to be cancelled off..
sorry leaders..
i think i'm always the 1 doin the wrong thing at the wrong time..
n ms yeo nv really scolded mi at all..
n i was touched by all her words..
" i scolded u all but i oso care bout all of ur..."
i really feel very touch by her words..
okie. den after dat field cooking!!!
i nv tell adriena dat the detergent is in the bottle..
den they thought is orange juice or oil..
n put it in the pizza they r making..
sorry... i thought u guys know..
sorry sorry..
den night activities is cancelled...
so we r lyk having dinner at 10..
n i don feel hungry at all..
weird rite!!
hahahahaha... lolx..
so i, nadine, allene, cherly n sam got nth to do..
so we went to the store to make gadget for everyone..
but den ms yeo found out.. cuz she have been looking for us...
den she started scolding us..
but den is not lyk scolding la..
hahahaha lolx..
okie... day 1 is finally over!!!
but COH is a sadening thing..
cuz every single 1 of us got a blasting frm ms yeo..
okie..
after COH, we leaders go n shower den started having meeting for tml progammes..
n the day i/c is rosheni..
okie.. slept at 3plus goin 4 plus..
DAy 2:
wake up at 5.30am..
so onli slp for 1 to 2 hr..
so tired..
den after inspection, is PT..
i nv do at all... of all the activities, i didnt do most of them..
okie.. after dat is canoeing for swallow, dove, mynah!!!
is very very fun..
n all the members coorperate wif mi..
so we didnt get any scolding..
n summore all of them r all very helpful n volunteer to do things..
that is a gd thing to c..
cuz i don have to shout at them...
its was really danm fun.. cuz we oso have water battle...
started by ANNA, CHERLY N MS ANDREW...
but den we r late for lunch..
rosheni is lyk so angry or sumthing lor..
wat is wrong wif her..
just because she scare she kana scolding...
~~P.S: ROSHENI IF U READ THIS..~~
~~PLS MAKE SURE U RMB..~~
~~NO MATTER WAT.. THING WILL NV ALWAYS GO perfect SMOOTHLY..~~
~~N IT WILL NV GO WAT U WISH IT TO BE..~~
~~THIS IS NOT THE WAY TO LEAD!!!~~
~~GET IT..~~
~~ONLI AFTER MAKING MISTAKE DEN U WILL LEARN BUT HOPE DAT U REALLY LEARN!!!~~
~~EVERYONE WILL MAKE MISTAKE!!!~~
~~SO DON BE SELFISH!!~~
~~JUST ONLI THINK OF URSELF.. MAKE SURE U THINK FOR OTHERS TOO...~~
~~n pls rmb who is higher than u..~~
~~DO NOT command any1 hu have higher autority than u..~~
i'm really very angry wif her attidu toward a leaders..
she scolded almost all leaders n summore all she think is herself..
SELFISH PORK!!!!!!!
anw its over.. just hope dat she really learn her lesson..
okie..
den after dat canoeing for session 2 was horrible..
all the things was done by mostly the leaders...
n the members was lyk standing there looking..
i have nv seen instructor andrew so angry before..
n he say that they r all selfish ppl...
i cant believe it..
wat i think is no 1 is scare of allene dat y they climb over her head..
haiz.. canoeing session 2 make all the leaders, guiders n instructor angry..
okie.. den later ms yeo ask mi wat's wrong wif allene n i forgot hu else!!
den i say nth wrong.. after cherly say sumthing..
okie.. so i n cherly went to help them.. n forgot to tell nadine about it..
opps!!! sorry..
okie.. den after dat was the campfire preparation..
alot of ppl cry..
just because of the campfire items..
okie.. i seriously think that this is a sad camp.. i really agree..
when i was helping them, ms yeo came to mi to help mi put calamine lotion..
so nice of her.. n she say the touching words at this time..
okie.. so i helped to organise 'em to keep all the canoes.
i can c dat they r in bad mood n most of the sec 2s r very tired..
i heard dat some of 'em helped n help non-stop..
sorri i cant help ur to tell ms yeo, cuz i'm not dere at all..
hmmm... everything seen to went well for day 2..
den after dat was the 2nd most fun progamme: CAMPFIRE..
it was fun but a sad wan.. cuz it was oso a farewell for ADRIENA!!!
most of the leaders cry.. but lucky i control my tears..
okie.. n the guest-of-honor was MS ANDREW N another instructor..
n guess wat!!!!
i was shocked by the surprise dat i get in e mid of e campfire..
guess who came...
it was meidan n sze hui...
they came just to c mi.. cuz they miss mi...
i'm so touched lor... but i don have to time for 'em..
cuz i'm lyk still have to be busy wif the camp stuff...
anyway, i'm so honour.... thank you so much..
i miss ur too... n yizhen oso...
okie.. after dat we had supper n den COH...
oh ya.. during supper, ms yeo went off for her other camp wif MS ANDREW..
all e leaders r so tired.. n so we used e rest time to slp...
den during COH, almost all of us fell asleep...
hahahaahaha... lolx.. including MII!!!
okie.. so ms lim make it short so dat we all can go to bed early..
but the early is alr 12 plus...
yawn... so tired dat all of us nv go shower..
we just fell asleep n plan to wake up early next morning to shower..
DAy 3:
guess wat.. i'm suppose to wake 'em up to shower..
but i over-slept...
so shower late but lucky not late for inspection...
den after dat we had breakfast, followed by footdrill...
this time footdrill was fun cuz my row was lyk laughing over some small thing..
okie.. but we have to keep stopping just to let other ppl who is camping around dere to walk pass wif their rafting
ohhhhhhhhhhhhh.. i'm so jealous.. i wan to go rafting...
so fun lor.. okie anw.. after dat was area cleaning n strike camp..
during strike camp, leader tents kana scolding...
cuz 1 of us just drop e tent so uncle Gazali shouted at us..
n i was shocked, i don't know know wat happen..
den i realise it..
okie.. very slow la.. cuz very tried..
ya meidan n sze hui went home half-way..
sadening.. cuz cant talk to 'em much..
haiz.. okie.. den it was lyk raining..
i run in the rain e most cuz i have to move all the equipment n led all e gals to e bus..
lolx..
after dat i manage to rest n slept in e bus..
finally, we reach back sch..
but i still have to command 'em to work..
cuz they have to help mi move all the things back to e guide rm..
so yup.. so tired..
in e end all of 'em can go home liao..
but nadine don't let mi go home..
cuz of e stupid leaders' tee...
stupid la...
okie.. anw all the sec 4 o-lvl guides,
i'm so sorry to let u guys pay for it when its lyk so ugly n u all don even nid it alr..
seriously sorrie..
that is all bout the camp..
n i'm lyk shocked.. y ms lim nv do voting for the newly COMPANY LEADER!!!
i'm so anxious to know...
n i really hope its samantha/jolie..
i will seriously object if its ~~rosheni n nadine~~..
i seriously think dat they cant be 1..

Savage Garden - i knew i loved you

2005-05-25T22:04:00.000+08:00

"I Knew I Loved You"
Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instantand there it goes
I think
I've found my best friend
I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe
[chorus:]
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
There's just no rhyme or reasononly this sense of completionand in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
I'm searching for
I think I found my way home
I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe
[repeat chorus]
A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I found you
[repeat chorus to fade]

what is wrong with ew?

2005-05-25T20:32:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling so damn sad now..
what is happening to mi?
why m i lyk dat now..
so inattentive...
i jus cant concentrate studing for mid-yr..
but i really study very hard liao lor..
is jus that my heart & mind is not there..
i don wan!!!!!!!
wake up gal!!!
wake up man..
u must really wake up..
ruixin can u stop talking to urself..
okie okie..
i don wan to c mrs das/HOD for my PTM!!!
I DON WAN!!!!!!
i really very scare now..
i scare i really cant go to sec 5!!!
how?
i really very scare..
i scare i cant pass!!!
i really wan to go sec 5..
m i really over confidence with myself?
or m i really very proud?
i really cant take it already...
i'm really very tired liao...
haven been sleeping well for lyk goin 2 wks time!!!
haven been having proper meal oso...
jus hope dat camp jus hurried up finish...
i cant take it liao..
i think she is rite..
i just cant let go of guide..
cuz i scare it will juz fall...
but den studies is more importance to mi...
can i just give up on guides..
y i cant..
is time to let go, i must let go..
cuz it is no longer urs!!!
maybe i should try to let go alr..
okie.. shall not think so much..
2 more days to camp..
feeling so excited & worried for..
cuz is not even properly discussed..
haiz.. so tired..
this yr today is my 2nd time crying in school..
today i cry until very terrible..
n the 1st 1 who cum to mi is allene..
p.s: thanks allene..
i'm touched by wat u do..
n all those ppl who came to console mi..
thanks alot..
i so worried for PTM oso..
feeling so scare..
hope dat my tap will open n started flowing..
god pls pray for mi..
i don think i will have the mood for camp after my PTM..
haiz..
anw i'll stop here den..
c ya..

2005-05-14T18:19:00.000+08:00

den just now meidan ask mi to go bowling wif them..
but i don wan...
so tired n lazy to go out..
n u know wat.. my MP3 ear phone break into 2...
haiz.. actually wan to break liao.. den i try to take care of it carefully...
but in the end it still break...
haiz...
sadening..
zhen: i nv blame u okie..
don worry..
okie.. c ya la..
mummy scolding mi fer using com the whole day...
haiz.. got to go..
c ya...

yeah!!! mid-yr finish liao...

2005-05-14T17:53:00.000+08:00

HIP HIP PURRAY!!!!!!!
mid-yr has finish...
so damn happy...
i can finally go enjoy liao...
yeah..
but den i don think i can do well for it...
cuz i cannot concentrate..
anw.. before mid-yr...
i really learn alot of things frm yizhen..
thank you so much..
today after dat stupid a-math paper 2 [so damn hard],
went home to change den went to mit zhen at hougang mall...
dan cum my hse to wait for mi... den mit jw downstair..
den mi, jw had our dinner at hougang mall...
den we head to dan's hse to watch movie..
1is so funny n the other 1 is so scary..
is lyk so damn scary lor...
jw started screaming den meidan scream oso...
den make mi scream oso...
lolx.. okie..
den we head to town by taking bus 132...
when we reach there, we walk to PS to mit swee hui..
den stay dere for a while to c the [Perfect 10-dare mi to]
oh man.. its so gosh...
a gal licking a guy's armpit which is full of jams..
make mi feel lyk vomitting...
YUCKZ!!!!! so gosh...
den yvonne bring us go pool...
i'm so curious to know how it is lyk..
so i went.. den after a while we left..
i can say i'm not suitable to this place...
den we head back to town to go eat pasta.. cuz dan want to c her zhilei!!!!
den after dat jw n mi find dat dat guy working dere is quite cute..
not bad la..
but den i cant be bother wif guys nowsaday..
they r kind of sick!!!!!!
okie.. den we went to take neo..
1 in herren, 1 in cine...
okie.. den went to esplanade...
wowo so cooling lor...
lolx.. those guys doin break dance r so cool....
okie.. okie.. den we went to s'pore river...
its so relaxing...
den got 1 group of ppl shouted "we hate you"
swee hui n hui fang n i don know hu shouted back "we oso"
den they call us to stup up...
hahahahahaha.... lolx..
cua is lyk kind of very late already so we walk back to the mrt station.. to go home...
haiz.. today si so crazyn i really enjoy myself wif hui fang, swee hui, dan, zhen, jw...
guess wat time i reach home.. just nice.. 12 am...
i'm lyk so scare cuz its "black fri"
haiz.. anw.. hope dat i can go out wif dem again.. to enjoy...
c ya guys... bye...
MAY GOD BLESS US!!!

1 week before mid-yr!!!

2005-05-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

time past so fast..
1 more week is my mid-yr liao..
i very scare nv o well..
den ms ong will have to ground mi in sch until my prelim..
sickening la...
okie.. i must mug very hard for it...
okie.. lets tok bout the things dat happen recently...
i'm just cant stop thinking bout the words dat eu say dat hurt mi...
so many things happen... regating:
>>>>>close frenz
>>>>>family
>>>>>studies
>>>>>outside frenz
>>>>>guides

[[[[ regating close fren ]]]]
why must it happen just before my mid-yr...
i just cant stop thinking..
maybe she's rite... why should i care bout them..
wat r frenz really fer?
i'm i just a toy to them? or i'm there frenz?
that is wat i'm thinking all the while..
okie.. now really just cant be bother wif her them liao...
is easily make frenz but its hard to break a friendship..
until now i still cant forget the attitude she has dat few days..
her act cool, angry, feel lyk fighting face...
wat the f u c king hell can..
wat's her big problem when it doesnt even concern her..
is just her "GOD" wat...
so irritating...
it wouldn't be solve b4 mid-yr if not jw told dem..
i feel angry n glad dat jw did dat..
angry is becuz she betray mi..
happy is becuz she help mi to solve it b4 exam..
or else i really cannot even concentrate...
haiz..
sickening la..

[[[[ regrating outside fren ]]]]
when i have problem i tell dem..
when they have problem they share wif mi..
but it seen lyk it give mi sum more problems
haiz.. lolx...

[[[[studies ]]]]
i cant cope wif it anymore..
i nv really listen during lesson..
n sum more even if i listen i still don understand..
wat's wrong wif mi?
haiz..
must really mug hard liao...
this yr N-level..

[[[[guides]]]]
june camp is cuming soon...
still must plan..
lucky i still got the sec3 leaders to help mi..
but seriously i don't feel lyk goin..
even thought i lyk to go camping.. but i don lyk to plan..
so sian... sec 4 onli onli got we 4...
sickening la...
okie okie...
i shall not complain so much....
must learn to look on the bright side of my life...
seriously i learn alot after wat had happen...
n most importantly i learn to smile n laugh more..
becoming more n more optimistic..
but den i still got terrible mood swings..
sickening la...
anw.. good luck everyone...
MUG HARD FOR UR MID-YR!!!!!!

PFT [16/04]

2005-04-17T17:15:00.000+08:00

haiz.. so tired..
n i'm having muscle ache...
so pain lor..
opps... i think i hurt 1 person's feeling..
die la.. how..
sorry la kor.. not purposely wan...
u should who is it..
so sorry..
anw.. 1 still left wif 16 more days to mid yr..
die la.. i haven even study lor..
so many topics for 1 subject lei.. how ah..
die liao la.. die liao la...
okie.. i must make a promise n goal or not i will nv study..
haiz..
c ya la.. goin to study liao.. brb..
16 more days to mid-yr

sookien's b'day!!!!

2005-04-09T02:46:00.000+08:00

haiz.. so tired...
opps!!! u know wat.. i reach home at 12 today..
haiz.. so naughty rite..
hahahaha lolx.. wen out at 2 to mit jiawen to buy sookien b'day present
haiz.. den before dat i wen to cut my hair..
hahahaha.. now my hair is lyk so thin liao lor..
hahahaha but my front very ugly..
sianz na..
okie.. den when to marina bay to mit sarie, sookien, audrey n janet...
den after dat allene cum n join us...
yup.. den we eat.. so full lor...
yup.. den the guy there is so shuai... but not my type..
hahahaha.. lolx..
okie... den we oso brought her a cake...
everyone kana wif cake lor... lolx..
lucky i nv..
hahahaha i clever mah...
lolx.... okie.. den went to airport after dat to pei sarie go send her grandma off..
okie.. den went home...
so tired...
after dat i bath n den talk to my kor [darren]
hahahaha.. until don know wat time..
den i went to slp liao...
c ya.. very sleepy now..

=1/04/05= St. Patrick Campfire nite!!

2005-04-01T01:26:00.000+08:00

okie.. today is APRIL FOOL DAY!!!
yuppie!!! but den we all grow up liao.. nth much lor..
this yr nv kana.. so gd right..
today is oso "ms ong b'day"..
during recess, we celebrate for her..
we brought her a cake n card..
ya.. den swee hui, meidan went up to find ms to tell them dat sushann sprain her leg..
den ask her to go down immediatly to look at her..
den they look very serious n real lor..
hahahaha lolx.. den mama ong was lyk huh?
den tml AC how.. okie..
den when ms ong cum down to the canteen, we sang b'day songs for her..
OMG!!! so touching lor..
okie.. den after she cut the cake, she gave meidan i slice..
den meidan so playful.. so she go take the cream n put on mama ong's face..
MUhahahaha.. so funny...
den she turn back thought dat ms ong will not revenge..
but.......................................
when she turn back, ms ong just smack the cream on her face..
so funny lor.. somemore on the right time when meidan turn back.. hahahaa
okie.. den nth much lor.. dat day after 6, we went to ST. Patrick sec..
cuz they invite us to go for their campfire..
okie.. so i went wif allene, jasmine, syahirah, souzanne, dawn, nadine, rosheni, agnes, debra, jia yen, gwendolynn n natasha...
oh oh.. ya.. N MS YEO...
okie.. den is lyk it don't seem to be a campfire at all...
is lyk a concert..
so crazy... everyone is jumping about when the st pat's venture scout band perform..
they r so cool... especially the lead singer..
he is cute lor..
hahahaha okie..
den the SJI ppl oso perform..
that guy in the orange clothes is cool n cute..
but too bad he is frm SJI...
i hate guy frm there..
okie.. den i feel kinda of lame n weird over there..
okie.. den got 1 sch scout is SO disgusting..
they don't feel shamful at all lor..
so disgusting..
doin all the disgusting things.. so sickco...
okie.. den after dat we went back half way..
i was so sleepy.. n i slept in the bus..
okie.. den when i woke up.. so blur lor..
so hiaz.. okie... nth to say liao..
goin orh orh liao..
GD NITE!!!

hey..

2005-03-31T18:30:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey..
i'm finally back..
so scarly lor.. ever since last wk, ms lim lee eng want to c mi until today..
den i manage to c her today.. i thought wat la..
chey.. is just bout my confidence when i led the guide..
argh.. n the compair of the sec 1 n sec 2 guides..
yup.. den lyk dat lor..
today allene went for her ballet exam..
so nv come sch..
but she nv tell ms ong.. so ms ong is lyk very angry..
argh!!! den she say y we know, she don know..
so weird la.. y is she so angry wif such a small matters..
ya lor.. den sch is lyk everyday oso the same wan.. quite boring lor..
ya.. den after sch after toking to ms lim..
i wait for grace den went to mit sookien n jasmine at R.M..
to eat.. we eat for 1 hr plus lor..
hahahaha lolx.. so long la...
okie.. den nth to tok bout liao..
ya.. tml i will be goin to St. pat's campfire..
so excited lor..
hahaha lolx.. okie.. shall tell u wat happen tml..
c ya..

my b'day!!! 23/03/05

2005-03-23T01:23:00.000+08:00

hey.. today is my b'day...
recieve alot of sms n wishes frm my frenz in the morning..
i'm really very happy..
but allene is not here in sch today..
OMG!!! i m so surprised lor.. i thought they nv buy mi present..
but in the end, during ms ong lesson:
ms ong ask mi to go there..
den the whole class sing b'day songs for mi.. OMG
i'm so touched.. is lyk so grand lor..
den they gave mi a sling bag n a creative MP3..
which i long wanted..
~~but the bag is not the 1 that i lyk is the other 1.. which allene lyk it too...~~
nvm its okie.. i still lyk it alot.. thanks you so much..
erm.. okie.. den after sch i got o-level e-math lesson..
den got no time to eat.. so i ask jasmine to help mi buy..
OMG i cant finish at all lor.. y ah.. okie..
n can u believe it: sookien cannot finish her food...
OMG!!! she is a big eater man. but y today she cannot finish?
lolx sia..
den i went for guides...
OMG.. its so grand oso..
when i reach there they sing b'day songs for mi..
den after dat i went to change n have my lunch..
den after dat the brought mi a b'day cakes n i made my wishes..
den they chase after mi to spash the cakes on mi.. OMG!!!
my hair is full of the cake smell YUCKZ!!!
so gosh.. n disgusting.. yucks..
i spend my whole guides time in the toilet lor..
den after dat i onli got to eat a small pieces of cakes.. cuz the sec 1 ate our cakes..
arh... okie okie.. shall not blame them.. they r still young..
they still do not know some manners.. lolx..
den today nadine is not in a gd mood...
so ya.. lyk dat lor.. she is so bu shuai in wat eva things i do n say..
wat eva la.. go ahead in wat eva things u do lor..
since u r so IN for ur cousillor thing.. just go ahead.. okie..
i don care bout it... u can hate mi by all mean..
i don care bout how u feel cuz u don know how hard the other guide leader r doin..
okie.. den wen home dat time wen toilet to change n guess wat...
i was lock in the toilet n the lock cannot be open..
hahahahaha den i was screaming away..
den is lyk anna, CJY n the np gal is oso in the toilet..
so is lyk finally i got to unlock the lock..
so bai sai.. okie..
they r lyk laughing at mi oso.. so ma lu...
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
den went home.. ya ya...
didn't really celebrate la.. rite.. hahaha but i lyk this yr's b'day...
which is so sweet n grand n surprising..
okie.. dat's how i celebrate my b'day...
P.S: thanks you so much for all the present n wishes...
Love u guys a lot.. muackz!!!
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN!!!!

18/03

2005-03-18T16:48:00.000+08:00

boring boring boring!!!
haiz.. wat kind of holiday is this man..
is lyk not holiday at all lor..
must go back sch for 3 days den the rest of the time i don know do wat la..
either go out or go online..
haiz.. arh!!! haven even do my holiday homework yet lor..
how ah.. 3 more days den sch reopen liao..
how how how????????
den is totally got no mood to do guide things lor..
okie.. wat is thr problem wif them can..
just go out to celebrate my b'day will die izzit..
ASS HOLE!!!!
that jia wen n audrey see each other will die izzit..
i hate it..
Arh!!!! help mi...
haiz..
okie.. shall just don care bout them den.. just go enjoy myself tml..
goin sentosa AGAIN.. hahaha to go sun tan.. den go watch movie again..
hahaha.. lolx..
c ya la.. gtg..
i msg for all my frenz..
thanks for being my fren.. lolx..
life without frenz is really meaningless n lonely..
i'm glad dat i have u guy out there..
thank you so much for all ur concern n support..
althrough sometime wat sum of ur say is really hurting..
but it makes mi learn to be a beta frenz/person..
thanks for tolerating all my rubbish, mood swing, AP etc.
u all r really very nice frenz..
THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!

14/03 [<.my 1st b'day celebration 2005.>]

2005-03-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

hey.. wat's up babe!!!
hahaha.. lolx.. today.. morning went for chem lesson..
den wen sentosa wif debra, allene, kendra, anna, annabel, cherly, karylan, jolien of cos mi!!!
hahaha lolx..
okie.. den we sun tan.. i got wet okie.. being push down by those ppl..
ass la.. dey...
hahaha okie.. onli went sentosa awhile onli..
den go off bathing n wen to town..
den we go separate way to have our lunch n dinner..
den to watch movie..
[<.HITCH.>] hahaha lolx..
so funny..really had a great time.. n lotz of fun..
allene n anna wif their flying shoe bag..
n allene wif her sickco behavior [licking ppl arm]
yuckz.. disgusting alright.. hahaha lolz....
yup.. but so sad.. kendra left early.. hahaha
lolx.. den we went take neo neo.. okie.. den went walk walk.. den go home liao.. sianz rite..
haiz.. okie..
very tired liao.. gtg.. c ya..

goin crazy soon!!!

2005-03-11T23:42:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........
i'm goin crazy soon.... how? anyone can help mi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat's wrong wif mi?
wat's happening...
i'm i stressed or i'm just having mood swing..
just now just hang up the fone wif qian yu..
den i cry when i talk to her.. bout wat happen today..
so sick can.. i cannot believe myself lor..
just because of them will make mi cry!!! O2P...
okie.. den is lyk today got totally got no mood to do any things lor..
den is lyk got no mood at all.. in very bad mood.. scoulding the junior..
P.S: sorry all of u guy..
if i really did something wrong.. but i really don know wat did i do..
sob sob..
wat is wrong wif mi.. y m i crying out of a sudden...
i'm i under stress or wat..
oh man.. i just don understand myself nowadays..
wat is wrong wif mi.. i cant control myself frm getting angry, bad mood, sad..
is all the emotional feelings..
okie okie.. this yr i really slack alot lor..
i keep goin out.. den nv even study at all..
okie okie.. yesterday really got no mood until i cancel my b'day outing..
really. got no mood to go out..
but i still have to go sentosa to celebrate wif my junior..
wonder wat they r up to..
sick sick sick... Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......................
i cant take it anymore.. if i go on lyk at i'm goin crazy soon..
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......... i don wan to be lyk dat.. i cant take it wan..
alright.. i shall stop here.. anw hope dat i will have a gd time when i'm at sentosa..
c ya..

2005-03-05T17:17:00.000+08:00

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the awnsers
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

2005-03-05T10:26:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. mua b'day is coming...
hahahaha so excited...
goin out wif my classmate at 19/03
den going sentosa wif my meis n guides ppl at 20/03 or 18/03
hahahaha.. so excited...
so gd... wait till march holiday den i can go shopping crazy....
for all the things i wan... hahaha... but got no money.. hahaha...
lolx...

CT weeks!!! sianz la!!

2005-03-05T10:05:00.000+08:00

so sianz lor.. the whole weeks is common test!!!
i fail everything liao la..
nv really study lor...
even if got study ah.. c the paper fogot everything liao..
wat to do? i got STM mah.. muhahahaha..
lolx.. den so funny lor.. on my chinese test rite...
i wan to go toilet... den dat teacher is sleeping.. nv c mi rise up my hand..
den when she wake up oso nv c mi..
den mi n mich keep making noise to make the teacher wake up...
hahahaha.... lolx sia... is lyk on fri all teacher all very funny lor..
so siao siao wan.. okie..
tis yr i really slack alot sia.. common test still can go out play n shopping..
siao liao la..
[wat is goin on wif u, ruixin?] [u got bf or gf izzit?] tis is the Qn which ms ong always ask mi!!!
i oso don know wat is goin on wif mi.. i got no mood to study at all lor..
i know dat it is not lyk mi at all.. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh but i don know la..
no point asking mi all those qn!!! i oso don know WHY!!!
okie okie.. shall not talk about all this liao..
anw i found out y Natasha nv cum for guides already!!!
is becuz her frien fm tp convent ask her to go back...
n is not sjc guides ask her to go back.. she lie to all of us..
idiot la.. i thought she is not lyk dat wan... y is it dat she lie to us..
okie forget it!!!
den yesterday during guides, we had field cooking.. it was in a very very big mess...
y????? cuz is a very last min doin.. n sum more we don have solid fuel..
all the things we all have to borrow..
sick rite.. mi n allene nv rest at all lor.. keep walking up n down.. so tried lor..
den sickening.. i wan to go for st. pat's campfire nite...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh... stupid la.. y must i go for st thersais campfire nite.. ahhh...
i wan to go!!!! y must it be on the same day?
okie okie.. ruixin stop complaining.... alright!!!

mY LiFe!!!

2005-02-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

26/02:
>yesterday wen tuition..
den reach there rain sia..
den mi n mat got no chioce but to walk n run in the rain...
cuz we r already late for tuition..
so we reach there guess wat..
i'm all wet.. den mr hsu's maid gave us towel to dry ourself..
hahahaha.. so funny lor.. is lyk there the ppl was lyk looking at us..
hahahaha lolx.. den later zhao lin cum.. she was also all wet.. poor us..
hahahaha.. after tuition... go airport to mit allene, meidan, yizhen n jiawen..
but in the end i m e onli 1 there.. cuz allene n meidan haven finish their course...
den jiawen n yizhen don know how la..
yup.. after dat wen to tampines mall to take neoprint...
not in the mood of taking actually.. don know y..
just feeling very tired..
den reach home late.. kana scolding..
haiz.. so sianz... yup.. den lyk dat lor..
n guess wat.. i got a shock getting a msg n wrote there [sweetheart] at the end..
omg.. erm.. sorry.. pls don send mi dat again.. okie.. thanks..
27/02:
> today.. quite boring la.. n also doin the same thing..
watching tv n doin homework since morning until 5.30..
wen to grandma hse.. boring la..
next wks got ct.. sian la..
i must pass all.. anot i cannot take o level e-math this yr..
okie.. goin orh orh liao.. c ya la.. gd nite.. sweet dreamz..
p.s: thanks for those ppl hu comfort mi this wk.. Ah Cheng...
thanks..

tired days..

2005-02-21T23:27:00.000+08:00

so sianz.. today is the worse day for mi..
today is thinking day!!!
n i have to lead the whole sch in the pledge n national anthem n everything..
wat the h**l can..
i say [OH SHIT] in front of the whole sch!!!
n after dat.. guess wat.. i got no voice to say the pledge!!
den after they whole thing.. i kana a very big lecture frm ms yeo..
so sorry la.. u think i want it to happen mah.. i was so nervous..
n somemore i say the wrong thing.. of cos will panic la...
who will not panic.. siao ah.. den after dat i wen tback to the classroom..
while doin the english test.. my tears just flow down lyk dat..
i was really very sad la.. i embrassed myself in front of the whole sch..
for the 1st time on the stage.. den pei sei myself..
sickening la...
den.. the whole day is lyk not in gd mood at all..
just feel lyk digging a hole n hide myself inside..
okie.. den later got history lesson somemore la..
must ms yeo again.. so irritating..
haiz.. sianz ah.. den during ms yeo lesson..
wat the hell can... some1 ask her whether can we play games..
den ms yeo say nope..[i'm in bad mood today] den she look at mi...
is lyk i oso not in gd mood rite.. is lyk everyday oso kana scolding frm some1 wan..
surly wan.. okie nvm.. but i really hate the way she is lor..
can she just stop picking on mi...
i hate it.. is lyk i'm so poor thing lor.. y is it always mi..
really really had enuff man.. i'm very very tried liao..
gtg liao la.. don feel lyk talking anymore...
den went tuition at 5.30.. lucky i got ppl who is entertaining mi..
so is lyk my mood become beta liao la..
P.S thanks darren!!!
den when i go tuition.. this stupid guy is lyk trying to sit oppsite mi..
but lucky tuition teacher ask him to sit at the other table..
hahaha.. gd for him.. he so nosie lor..
so wat if he live there.. so wat if he is Mr hsu's brother's-in-law's son..
so wat.. i don care.. just don lyk to c him.. so wat if he is shuai..
so wat.. i don care. just get lost frm my sight.. haiz.. hahaha...
den later go home.. so tired lor.. have a very long day today..
bye bye goin orh orh liao.. c ya..

A lOvE lEtTeR!!!!

2005-02-20T16:48:00.000+08:00

a letter dat i have read.. is a very meaningful letter.. as mani of us will feel the same when they lyk a person whom onli treated em as gd frenz or just doesn't noe dat u lyk em.. is love really so toublsome... n is always in a sad things:
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
When i saw u
i did nt noe y i had a strange feelin in mi
was it love
is it true or false real
or juz an illusion

When i saw u wif another guy very closely together
i dun noe y i felt heart-broken
I knew i liked u but i did nt dare to sae
i was afraid of wat others might sae
but when i decide to tell u
u were taken

I hinted to u but u did nt care
u treated mi like ur best fren
but i did nt like tat i wanted more but did nt sae

U knew i liked u all along
u knew how i felt
i noe u like mi too
but y did u get another guy
I felt so sad
but i did nt wan to sae
i acted normal to mi frens was happi when i was nti
did nt wan u to worry
so i pretended to be happy

I cared for u and showed concern all dis i did
cos i loved u
but i did nt wan to break up
so i juz silently waited and treated u gd

I regretted waitin and nt tellin u hw much i loved u
and nw i am juz another fool in tis game of love
which i was in by accident

Nw i hv lost u i realise tat i canot do mani tings without u
u are my inspiration my motivation

U empty my heart and thought of the past
and filled them wif ur luvin word
severi nite when no one was around
i wuld be at one sidetinkin of the happi times we had
i noe nw tat when u like a person
tell tat person b4 its too late

Temasek poly visit!!

2005-02-18T21:01:00.000+08:00

hey.. today went temasek poly.. my fav sch..
hahaha..
very hot sia..
the sch is so hot.. but very big..
hahaha..
will loss in the sch lor..
feel so irritated cuz i really really very very HOT!!!!
okie.. now i know wat course i wan to take liao..
is the [business]..
but still don know which dilpoma to sign up for..
i feel lyk goin there again..
cuz i nv really c wat the sch have..
only manage to go to the design n business school..
so i still wan to go to other subject sch...
hahaha.. okie.. today oso is republic poly's open hse..
didn't manage to go.. cuz today cannot la..
den tml i got to go for thinking day in indoor statium..
hahaha.. the day of guide..
cool rite.. haiz.. den i will be very tried liao..
okie.. tml oso goin to watch the chingay...
1st time watching on the spot.. hahaha...
cool lor.. den today saw alot of cute n shuai guy..
hahaha.. so cute lor..
den my I-Guide [Roy] is so lame n childish lor..
he sing n jump n walk at the same time..
i was lyk so wat lor.. lyk huh?
hahaha.. okie.. he is oso not bad la.. very gd lor..
very patience even thought we was lyk so quiet n walk very slow..
n is lyk onli got 2 hr to look through..
how to c finish everything..
siao ah.. i rather go there the whole day lor..
okie.. gtg liao.. haven sew my badge yet.. so have to go liao la..
c ya..

2005-02-14T17:16:00.000+08:00

LUV IS LIKE.........
When you are together with that specialsomeone,
you pretend to ignore that person.
But when thatspecial someone is not around,
you might lookaround to find them.
At that moment, you are inlove.
Although there is someone else who alwaysmakesyou laugh,
your eyes and attention might go onlyto that special someone.
Then, you are in love.

Although that special someone was supposed tohave called you long back,
to let you know oftheir safe arrival, your phone is quiet.
You aredesperately waiting for the call!
At that moment, you are in love.

If you are much more excited for one short e-mail from that special someone than other manylong e-mails,
you are in love.
When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all the messages in your answering machine because of one message from thatspecial someone,
you are in love.

When you get a couple of free movie tickets,
youwould nothesitate to think of that special someone.
Then,you are in love.

You keep telling yourself, "that special someoneis just a friend",
but you realize that you cannot avoid that person's special attraction.
Atthat moment, you are in love.
While you are reading this page,
if someoneappears inyour mind,
then u are in love with that person.

140205 - 1st valentine's day

2005-02-14T00:15:00.000+08:00

hahahaha...
so happy.. today is valentine's day..
since i got no valentine but i got a group of close frenz who r so gd to mi..
so its okie la..
today i bring big bag, small bag to sch..
so heavy lor.. hahaha.. so excited..
today's valentine's day i'm lyk goin town to sell roses..
hahaha..
can c all the couples together..
i'm actually very jealous to c them together.. is lyk hoping to haf 1 too lor..
okie.. no use envy them.. okie..
after sch onli got mi n allene..
just the two us go out..
den we wanted to go K-box to sing..
but sorry allene i got very bad sore throat..
so dat y we nv go sing..
allene is so disappointed..
den we wen to walk walk..
saw ppl giving free roses.. I WAN!!!!
y is it dat no one give mi?
okie nvm... forget it..
haiz.. but i oso saw alot of ppl hu wen out wif their group of frenz..
cuz y la.. of cos is got on valentine lor.. hahaha.. okie..
saw alot of cute guys too... they were lyk looking at us..
cuz allene too chio liao mah.. hahaha...
okie.. den wen home lyk bout 10.30.. so late lor..
hahaha.. but nvm its okie la..
goin orh orh liao.. or not tml i cant wake up..
c ya... gd nite.. huggie.. sweets dreamz..

new year visit!!!

2005-02-13T00:38:00.000+08:00

hey..
today went to nat's hse to go visiting...
hahaha.. her hse really got alot ppl man..
cannot even move.. hahahaha..
okie.. there is jia wen, dawn, juliet, sarah, janet..
hahahaha.. okie.. den got lion dance.. hahahaha..
so cool lor.. den i saw 2 cute guy.. so cute..
special the colour hair wan.. he is really very cute..
but he is a beng.. so sad.. too bad la.. hahaha..
REALLY VERY CUTE SIA...
okie.. den very busy making n wrapping all my valentine's day present for all my friends..
so exicted.. wonder if i got any big present anot.. hahaha..
okie.. just hope dat i got a rose frm the person.. but i don think so..
hahaha.. okie..
den after mi, jia wen n juliet left nat's hse, we wen CP to buy valentine's day present..
okie.. spend quite alot on the present lor.. so sad..
i wan more money.. so dat i can buy my mp3..
okie.. gtg.. goin orh orh liao..

2nd day of happy chinese new year!!!

2005-02-10T20:46:00.000+08:00

okie... tml is the goin back sch again..
so sainz.. don feel lyk goin to sch..
HOW... oso cannot concentrate wan..
okie. anyway.. i know sum thing dat alot of ppl don wan mi to know..
HAHAHAHAHA....
my Birthday is coming..
n guess wat i think allene they all plan sum thing very special..
but just don know wat it is..
but i guess i know wat my present is liao..
is a MP3 player.. haiz..
actually i don wan them to buy dat for mi.. cuz it really cost alot..
they will be broke after dat wan..
i don wan them to spend so much money just because i really really wan a MP3...
anyway.. Valentine day is just 3 days later..
n i'm goin to celebrate wif a group of my Gal frenz..
i really really hope to haf my valentine..
i really really envy all those couples..
but i just don wish to be involved in any love relationship matter...
i juz cannot take up any more things..
i had really enough of things to do..
n it is really very tiring n stressed...
okie.. dat is all for today..
goin to watch my tv show liao.. c ya...

hApPy LuNaR nEw YeAr!!!

2005-02-09T14:00:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey!!!
i'm back again.. hahahaha...
so long nv come n update my blog liao..
so its lyk rotting soon!! hahaha...
okie.. anyway.. this few weeks had been a very tired, stress n busy wks..
i don even have the time to rest..
haiz.. okie.. nw i find that i'm lyk having fun in guide n guide have improve a little la...
not so bad la.. at least got improve rite.. beta den nv..
sch work:
i couldn't catch up at all..
wat is happening to mi.. i cannot concentrate in class at all..
WHY!!! WHY!! WHY!
i must really work hard man..
this yr i will be taking my N-level n O-level E-math oso..
so must JIA YOU!!!!!
n teacher are all giving us pressure...
make us even more stress n scared..
i really really need a break!!!! i'm really very tired liao..
okie.. let mi talk about myself..
i'm sick again... terribly sick..
i have been throwing my temper for no reason..
have terrible mood swings..
sickening.. sumtime, just feel lyk crying out..
n sum more.. there is really so much things to settle n handle..
n got alot of things happen.. just don know wat to do...
can anyone tell mi wat should i do!!!
n i really don wish to talk about relationship matters..
okie.. okie okie.. why are 'you' so naggie!!!
today must be happy n high..
cuz is chinese new year..
can get alot of hong bao..
GREAT.... but i cannot eat any of things.. cuz i'm sick....
why i'm i always sick ...
okie... nth to talk about liao.. hahahaha...
once again..
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

2nd weeks of sch!!!

2005-01-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey!!!
tis whole week ah.. onli got mon n tue got study onli..
cuz all the rest of the days, we haf camp..
camp? hahaha.. but don nid to stay over wan.. hahaha..
but den tue lyk got no study lyk dat.. cuz alot teacher wen to sec 3 camp already..
hahahaha... talking n playing in class...
okie okie.. kana frm mrs ng scolding on tue..
wat is her bloody problems..
oso not be fault rite.. evrything oso scold mi.. wat the hell..
I M NO LONGER THE CLASS MONITRESS LIAO HOR!!!!
so got any thing is not my problems..
okie..
wed [12/1/05]
we wen for our heritage tour aroung singapore..
so tiring.. n is quite boring oso la...
hahahaha... n our lunch is suck!!!
wat kind of fried rice is dat man.. i oso know how to cook lor..
hahahaha... okie..
thrus [13/1/05]
okie.. today got to do my CIP PROJECT!!!
going hse to hse to collect old clothles, newspaper n electrical things...
so tired lor.. sum more i not feelimg well... okie..
den is lyk my group got no trolley.. den we haf to use all our hand power to carry all the heavy things.. so sainz la... okie.. den wen home to bathe n change..
wen out again.. wif zhen n jia wen..
we wen to hougang mall to find for office wear... erm.. actually not we la.. is jia wen..
den wen to my hse.. den to ponggol park.. den to nat's hse..
oh.. n i saw a monkey at ponggol park.. so weird lor..
okie.. wen nat's hse for 2 hrs.. juz to look for jia wen's office wear...
hahaha.. so excited for tml.. grooming course...
hahahaha...
fri [14/1/05]
okie.. wake up at 5 to prepare my self for the grooming course...
make up, bathe, haf my office wear dress properly n everything la..
n guess wat... i m wearing high heels lor...
so high.. lucky i nv fall down.. hahahaha.. lolx...
okie.. den during dat grooming course.. i m lyk almost going to fell asleep...
okie.. learn how to walk, sit n eat lyk a lady..
n be more lady lyk.. hahahaha.. so funny...
n my leg hurts alot man...
okie.. den wen jack's place for lunch..
den wen back sch.. den wen cp to mit al-lene n meidan..
den mit jason juz to pass him his present... okie...
den wen town.. very tired.. so wen home early.. cuz got no mood to shop..
yup... okie...
ya.. almost forgot..
there is lyk 1 group of girls n boys.. keep looking at mi..
wat is the problem wif them..
i really thing dat there is sum thing very very fishy!!!
but juz don know wat is it.. but den there is 1 thing dat i think:
they r jason's frenz.. or not y r they so weird.....
okie nvm. cannot be bothered wif them..
P.S:can ur all stop teasing mi..........
do u know how it feel to be tease all days, everydays...
n now my goal is juz to study hard.. n improve girl guide..
get it everyone..
i m really very busy nowadays..
i really cannot take it already.. feeling so stress.. goin crazy soon...
feel lyk having a very very loud scream man...............
tis whole will be a crazy month for mi...
i haf no mood at all to do anything lor...
HOW HOW HOW???
so parnoid.. y is it dat i cannot control my temper tis few weeks..
i'm having very horrible mood swings man...
very terrible's quick temper...
i juz cannot stand myself...
ruixin ruixin. pls control... or not u will get old very soon...
hahahaha.. okie... lolx..
meeting meeting meeting........... next week everyday i'm having meetings..
can i juz resign frm my posts as a CL...
i m really very tired lor... okie nvm..
oh shit.. i haven prepare any thing at all for the mon's meeting...
shit man.. don know wat to write..
okie.. goin off liao.. c ya.. goin off to prepare my proposal n so on la..
hahahahahaha.........

1st week of sch!!!!

2005-01-09T17:21:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey!! i haven finish... hahaha
anw.. i took my height n weight on fri...
n guess wat.. i lose weight, but is lyk by onli 0.2kg..
hahahaha lolx.. n the height is still 160.. i think the measuring thing got sum thing wrong lor..
i shld my 162 liao lor.. O2P!!! hahaha.. okie..
n yesterday i wen to esplanade tunnel where their will be alot of dancer there..
we wen dere to practise our dance.. hahaha..
wen wif adriena, allene, jasmine, rosheni, vanessa, dawn, siti, souzanne, sarah n debra..
it was lyk so fun.. hahaha..
saw alot of GUYS doin BREAK DANCE...
so cool lor.. n saw dat cute jap korean cute looking guy.. which adriena lyk..
hahahaha... he is really cute la.. but den i cannot be bothered..
hahahahaha... n i know dat when were dancing, got a guy keep looking at mi..
so embrassing... hahahaha... okie..
den know wat... got a guy taking video of debra when she was dancing..
den wen i saw dat.. i stop my dance... n debra don know bout it lor.. hahaha..
of cos la.. she is gd it dancing..n sum more got a very gd figure.. hahahaha...
okie.. c ya la..

2005-01-09T14:29:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey!!!

1 got lyk 1 wks nv blog liao..

rite.. sorry blog la..

i m really very busy wif my sch stuff lor..

got cca fair on fri.. n i did not plan properly lor..

haiz.. n is lyk in a very big mess lor.. alot of ppl on duty nv turn up..

den mi last min don know wat to do.. den the sign langauge ppl nv practise their songs..

den my ACL nv cum.. last min den turn up..

WA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz... so stress nw after back in sch...

got alot of things to do..

lyk camp, cca dance, planning of total defence day etc.

haiz.. i'm so tired.. its lyk onli 1 wks baq in sch onli lor...

den mi now wan to be very strict to all the guide during cca day..

must learn when to be serious n when to play a fool..

i can be very nice to dem wan la..but is they don deserve it..

they don even respect us as their leaders... how do u wan mi to be nice to dem???

n we guides r lyk so slacking lor.. no disciple at all lor..

cuz i m not a gd leader.. n i don noe how to handle dem.. so quiet lor..

haiz.... WHY WHY WHY????

okie.. i will be having camps next week!!!!

grooming, CIP, heritage tour camp.. sickening lor..

wat rubbish is that la.. still must go buy n look for office wear..

so damn mature lor.. okie anw.

this whole week nv really study la..

most of the time is lyk having stupid talks in the hall...

den onli thrus den start to know who is my subject teacher..

ms yeo may be is my history teacher.. hahaha so gd lor..

okie.. den now we r lyk rushing for our guide thinking day dance..

we r goin for auditions..

so sorry i will haf very long time cannot cum n update my blog liao..

yup.. den nw i'm still thinking of how to improve guide..

since ms yeo n ms lim leave the guide to mi, i cant let it ruin in my hand rite..

i cant disappoint ms yeo n ms lim ant more..

okie.. thinking of goin to other sch to c how they run guide..

still got alot of things to learn man..

nw must oso learn to multi task n not to throw my temper any how liao..

must learn to control.. no matter wat happen..

okie..

my promise n wish for this yr:

must concentrate n listen in class, whether i sleepy or not..
must study hard
don wan to be involve in any relationship or love problem..
don wan to haf any frenz problem..
learn to handle n control guides..
plan more fun n exciting event for them..
more outdoor activities n comminity service work..
raise fund for guides..

okie.. that is all i can think of now.. okie.. wa.. saw jason blog.. wow.. nw den know dat i so gd wan ah.. hahaha.. anw i don lyk any1 now.. juz wan to concentrate on my studies.. is lyk so stress dis yr lor.. "N" level liao.. den all teachers n myself think highy of myself.. so must really really work hard liao.. cannot play a fool liao.. yup.. jia yu wor!!!!

okie gtg.. going for my cousin's wedding.. and i pon for my edusave scholarship ceremony.. hahahaha... actually don wan to go la.. so boring lor.. go there take my edusave scholarship, sit until the end den can go off.. so must as well i go for the wedding dinner instead.. hahaha.. okie gtg liao la.. next week will be a suffering n stress n busy wek for mi liao.. hahaha.. okie.. c ya.. bye bye..

Happi New Year!!!!

2005-01-01T01:03:00.000+08:00

yeah!!! i wish everyone will haf a fruitful n sucess year ahead of them..
in the new year.. 2005!!!!
okie.. i wish dat everthing will go fine for mi this new yr..
n i will not haf a lot of problem to settle..
n most importance wan is my N-level..
i must to my family dat i can go to sec 5 n i must be in the top 5 % of the yr in sch..
i don care man.. nw working very very hard man..
ya.. actually ytr wan to stay until 12 wan.. but very tired.. so i fell alseep liao..
hahahaahaahaha.....
okie anyway..
today mit jolie n cherly go out..
den they over slept..
lucky i called dem.. or not don know wat time they r goin to go out man..
hahahaha... okie.. wen to tampine mall... go shopping
n i bought a billabong sch bag for my self..
so ex lor... den saw a billabong skirt so nice at 77th street..
but so ex oso.. no money.. cuz its the same price as the bag..
yup.. nvm.. wat till i haf money..
den wen century sq.. bought a anket too... so nice lor...
okie.. den wen play aracade.. so fun.. hahahaha...
den wen home..
during dinner time.. my mama n sis quarrel.. wat the hell...
i was lyk the middle person lor... THE THINGS STARTED WIF MI AGAIN!!!!
EVERYTIME THEY QUARREL ALWAYS MI INVOLVED WAN...
why why why?????? i hate it man..
or not will be..
MY PARENT QUARREL.. STARTED WIF MI AGAIN...
WAT IS THIS MAN.. i m lyk the jinx sia...
i oso don wan it to be lyk dat wan mah... :'(
okie.. i find dat nw adays my mother temper is getting worst liao..
but den i oso cannot control my temper..
everytime she say this.. i not happi den i quarrel wif her lor..
cuz is lyk not fair at all to mi lor...
is lyk everytime she in bad mood den the 1 hu always kana is always mi...
she will vent all her anger on mi... i don lyk it tis way lor...
i believe no 1 would lyk it lor..
okie anw.. den after dat.. no 1 even dare to say anything..[means mi n my father]
okie.. den i really wan to leave tis home lor.. tis is not even a home at all lor..
wat kind of home is this.. anw is not my 1st time running away frm home lor..
but where to go???? i don know.. okie..
juz hope dat... tis yr will be a sucessful yr for Mi n EVERYONE!!!!!
okie gtg.. goin orh orh liao... cuz my sis wan to use the com... yup...
c ya la... gd luck to everyone..

yeah!!! last day of work.. hahaha!!!

2004-12-31T22:29:00.000+08:00

okie.. doin i was lyk late for work for 20 min or so lyk dat..
hahahahaha.. n peggy was already dere liao.. hahahaha..
SERENE WAN MI TO LIE TO PEGGY DAT I WEN TOLIET JUZ NW!!!
wat the freaking hell can.. okie nvm...
n serene laft juz lyk dat..
don know go where.. juz ask mi to clean the drawer..
den i slack dere after dat.. erm.. wif kae hua la..
okie.. den arrange all the stuff for the popular..
she don even know wat to put there lor..
n i haf the rearrange for so many time..
cuz they r really very troublesome..
wat eva act must put together..
den the stock nv put together wan.. after i pack finish..
den open another box..
haf acts things again.. den must repacked AGAIN...
okie.. feel so tired after dat..
den juz wen home cuz i don feel lyk goin anywhere n doin anything..
okie... den slack st home n den kana scolding again.. frm my mother..
cuz i wen to alter my uniform until very short..
which is onli at my knee onli lor..
okie.. den lyk dat lor.. make mi got no mood at all for anything..
okie.. den c ya la.. today is the last day for 2004...
YEAH!!!! finally.. 3 more days to sch reopen..
hahahahahaha...

tired!!!!

2004-12-30T12:12:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. today wen to siglap again..
sianz argh!!!!!!!
okie.. anyway.. today.. onli got mi, kae hua n serene..
okie.. den serene very busy wif her popular book store..
so i be the cashier.. yup.. den mi n kae hua haf to do all the work ourself..
tired man.. hahahaha...
anyway.. okie.. after 3, we were lyk so called forced to eat our lunch..
so much lor.. wat the.. i cannot even finish..
n i haf to forced myself to eat..
okie.. den after finish the work for the uniform..
we haf to the packing n moved every thing to the book store..
okie.. wen rush home.. n i got wet.. yup..
den rush out again.. to mit zhen.. n we wen shopping..
hahahaha... n i finally cut my hair..
until very short..[to mi la].. hahaha..
okie.. den wen home at bout 11.30 lyk dat.. hahahaha..
ate my dinner at 11.30.. den wen to slp bout 1 am..
okie.. so damn tired okie.. yup..
c ya la.. goin orh orh liao..

sLeEpY dAy!!! yAwN!!!

2004-12-29T19:35:00.000+08:00

Yawn!!! so tired...
wake up late for work oso..
hahahahaha..
but den reach there i'm still the earliest...
hahahaha... okie...
den at siglap..
doin the same old things...
so sianz lor.. n i did alot of mistake.. maybe juz becuz i too tired...
hahahaha... okie... den too tired..
so wen home..
okie.. nth much liao... c ya la...
stupid lor.. my mama scold mi..
cuz of my hp bill.. its lyk onli 50 bucks lor..
wat the hell is lyk cheaper den my sis wan lor...
haiz.. okie okie.. i'm goin to stop using my phone liao...
haiz.. but i cant live w/o my phone...
haiz.. how....................... :(

bAlLeT cOnCeRt!!

2004-12-28T01:35:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. today wen baq to Siglap AGAIN....
sianz ah...
okie.. den nth much lor..
finally at least got some stock come in..
hahahaha.. den wen home to bath,eat my lunch at bout 3.30pm..
den mit jas at 5 to buy things..
yup.. den saw sarah..
n den mit jiawen n yizhen..
den wen to city hall mrt...
mit: joey, audrey,nat, sookien,shyan,sarah...
n u know wat...
I WAS FORCED TO EAT MY DINNER!!!!
so stupid.. okie... n i cant even finish my meal..
okie.. erm.. den i was lyk feeling so weird lor...
yup.. okie.. juz don know y.. maybe cuz of sum body..
yup.. don know la.. i'm confused!!!!
yup.. okie.. wen to al-lene ballet concert LATE!!!
haiz.. miss the small children dancing.. haiz..
okie..den saw allene.. she is so funky...
okie.. den is lyk i lyk all their dance steps.. so hip hop..
is lyk hip-hop ballet.. so KOOL!!! okie..
den is lyk when we enter the VICTORIA THREATRE...
natasha started crying Again... haiz..
i was sitting next to her..
okie.. n it make mi heartbreak oso..
my jie is crying cuz of a ureasonable freak [dreg]...
haiz.. okie..
n i'm so cold at the almost ending of the concert..
cuz i lend my jacket to nat.. n i oso not wearing t-shirt lor..
i wearing racer back n jeans.. haiz..
okie.. nvm.. juz hope dat she is okie..
okie.. den wen home.. cuz its lyk so late liao.. 11pm..
den slept at lyk 1am.. so tired...
yawn.. okie la.. c ya la.. i wan to go orh orh liao..
brb...

fAiNtInG, tIrEd N hUnGrY dAy!!!

2004-12-27T17:44:00.000+08:00

yawn!!! argh!!!!!!
going to be late soon!!!
okie.. hurry hurry!!!
okie.. wake up at 7.30..
goin to siglap sec to work..
haiz.. yawn!! tired!!!
okie.. onli got mi, ke hua n serene[frm popular]
weird rite.. frm popular when we r frm united uniform...
hahaha.. okie.. who cares..
alright.. den they r so weird..
den they ask mi n ke hua to fill in the job appilcation for popular..
OUT OF POINT!!!! SIAO AH!!!
they say dat i will onli get my paid after 1 wks..
huh.. out of point okie...
hahahahaha... okie...
meidan so gd lor.. work at the outlet..
mi oso wan.. cuz got more money to get mah.. hahaha...
okie..
P.S: meidan so wat if JASPER is next to u.. i DON CARE!!!! okie..
I HATE J PPL!!! okie.. ENOUGH OF IT OKIE!!! I DON LYK HIM!!!
NEITHER DO HE LYK MI!!!!! OKIE!!! HUMPH!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm so tired!!! so many ppl.. den dat serene so slow lor..
collect money oso must wait.. siao ah...
den got 1 nasty mother cum n scold mi...
SIAO AH!!!! i onli a student helper wat.. scold mi oso no use...
NOT MY FAUTH OSO MAH..... IRRITATING LA!!!!!
haiz.. den 3pm den dismiss lor..
den at dat time meidan already haf her lunch liao.... but mi haven lor..
okie.. i fainting soon!!! i m so hungry!!!
the stupid stock la.. we lost some of the stock lor..
ya btw i agree wif 1 of the parent...
if they haf no more stock den wat for they still open to sell the uniform..
siao ah.. wasting time..
okie.. den we don know count the stock how many time liao...
but still not correct lor...
ARGH!!!!!!!!!! HOW!!!!
okie.. den serene finally say nvm.. tml den settle...
hahaha.. say earlier la....
okie.. finally can go home.. den haiz.. so tired..
so don feel lyk goin tuition liao... hahahaha...
i pom tuition again.. hahahahaha..
okie.. c ya la.. gtg.. i wan to go take a rest liao.. so tired...
tml will haf alot of problem at siglap..
cuz they change all the price for the uniform..
den the parent surely complain wan... haiz.. sickening la...
poor mi n ke hua tml... haiz...
okie.. nvm.. tml i'll see how den.. hahahaha...
ya.. i very pro la... parent wan to complain den they say
wan to complain ah.. go lor.. go ahead... i will wait here for u!!!
wau liao... this kind of ppl oso haf.. they r oso doin their busniess oso mah..
cannot be lyk dat wan wat...
okie.. forget it.. who cares...
okie.. really really haf to go liao... bye bye!!!

2004-12-26T17:02:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey..
tml still got work.. so sianz..
working wif ke hua n serene..
haiz.. okie.. at siglap again.. so sianz ah...
okie.. anyway... gtg..
goin to grandma hse liao.. hahaha.. brb...

MeRrY cHrIsTmAs!!!

2004-12-25T10:41:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO!!! Merry christmas!! HOHOHO!!!
may all my frenz haf a pleasant year ahead n may their dreamz cum true!!
Praying hard..
okie.. 1 more week to sch reopen liao..
haven buy my sch bag yet la..
okie.. anyway.. today is X'MAS n i haf to stay at home..
haiz.. sianz ahr..
next whole week will be my last week working liao..
Great man.. don haf to c them liao..
hahahahaha.. okie. finally my com is back liao.. hahaha..
okie.. i got nth much to say liao.. gtg.. c ya..

cLaSs ChAlEt [<.22/12-24/12.>]

2004-12-24T22:20:00.000+08:00

yawn!!! wake up at 6 today..
cuz of the work lor..

wen to siglap sec.. wat the can..

so many ppl n i haf to be the measurer..

joey is my assistance...

hahaha.. i cannot even sit down lor..

haiz.. wondering hu is the 1 hu choose mi to be the measurer wan..

damn shit man..

sum more dat sch is a mix sch..

den i haf to measure for the guys oso..

shit dem la.. so smelly.. n their shirt is lyk wet wet wan..

yuck!!! so disgusting lor..

next week still must go siglap to work.. sianz ah..

den dere still got ah beng man.. sickening..

ah beng sux big time..

okie.. den finally can go off liao..

but i'm late.. cuz i mit jasmine n yizhen at 2 pm.. but i reach dere bout 3..

hahahahaha.. so sorry.. cuz the meowleng dismiss mi at 2.15 lor..

den very funny.. we wen to the wrong bus stop to take bus..

wait for so long lor.. den 1 aunt say dat tis bus stop got no bus cum wan..

den we all laugh...

hahaahaha.. so pei sei.. hahahahahaha..

okie.. haiz.. okie.. den we wen walk walk at town.. so boring..

haiz.. okie.. den we mit meidan. den we wen back to tampines..

den buy some food den we baq to chalet liao..

den we wen to c ah aqua at bout 11-12 lyk dat..

at 1st onli haf mi, meidan, jasmine, yizhen n jasmine..

den we wen baq cuz sheryl wan to buy drink..

so we wen to changi village again.. onli got mi, jasmine n yizhen..

hahaha.. saw some ah aqua very CHIO lor..

den got alot of guys keep looking at the 3 of us..

thought dat we r oso ah aqua.. SHIT them la..

we r real gals man... so bei tai...

den i was lyk so damn pissed off.. cuz e guys was lyk open their eyes until so big..

keep on looking at us..

feel lyk digging their eyes out man..

yeah!!! i stay over at the chalet.. actually don wan to slp wan..

BUT in the end i fell alseep.. cuz really don haf things to do mah..

left jasmine n yizhen nv slp for the whole day.. hahaha..

but i onli slp for lyk less then 3 hrs.. okie..

meidan slp den when we call her..

she scold us.. hahahaha..

so stupid.. den she don know lor.. hahaha..

she is talking in her dream.. hahaha..

i haf been very bad temper tis few days..

don know y lor.. maybe i_______ liao...

haiz.. okie.. den we wen back at 8 plus..

before dat we wen changi village to haf breakfast den wen to changi beach park to relax..

so nice lor.. ya i almost forgot..

our class chalet was juz near the sea.. so nice...

so windy.. n the sea can let us forget alot of sad things.. kool rite.. hahaha...

okie.. i slp in the bus on e way home..

wow jasmine is so great.. she nv slp at all lor..

so super.. i cannot man.. i will drop man..

okie la.. den i reach home.. drop down after i shower..

slp until 6 pm man.. kool.. hahahaha...

c ya la.. Merry x'mas in advance.. haahhaha...

ClAsS cHaLeT!! [<.22/12-14/12.>]

2004-12-22T10:54:00.000+08:00

hey hey..
i juz cum back frm class chalet..
okie la.. not really very fun lor..
yup..
On the 1st day [<.22/12.>]
i wen to mit dem at 1.30 at tampines mall..
there onli got mi, yizhen, allene n miya..
okie.. den ltr allene n miya haf to go collect the curry chicken..
haiz.. den left mi n yizhen.. so we call grace to cum n help us..
hahaha.. so funny lor..
okie.. den ltr saw jia wen, salina n kaylyn..
den ask dem to help.. cuz really really very heavy lor..
den my hand is lyk breaking soon..
haiz.. reach dere onli got these few of us..
den we help to start the fire..
wait until yarhui, sheryl, hazel, lynn, gough n laura to cum..
den sookien n audrey cum awhile den go there frenz chalet..
haiz.. tis time the chalet is really not very nice lor..
haiz.. ms ong oso very disappointed.. cuz alot of ppl nv cum..
den she say dat we are still in our own cliques..
sob sob man.. okie..
anyway.. i wen home wif grace n yizhen at 9.30 lyk dat..
hahaha.. ya.. den ms ong family oso got cum..
so weird lor.. our class chalet vis ong family's chalet..
hahahaha... okie.. den i m so tired..
ltr nadine called mi.. cuz last min got not enough ppl..
so i haf to call alot of ppl to ask if they r free on 23 th dec sec 1 oritentation..
haiz.. onli can manage to find cherly, jolie n anna..
haiz.. the same old ppl to help..
okie.. wen orh orh at between 12 - 1 am..
haiz.. yawn so tired.. gd nite..